Crazy about her (Marcel fanfiction)

chapter 12: at dawn we ride!

MARCELS POV

" I haven't had a dream like that in over a year. I mean I haven't talked about him for longer. I don't understand." she questioned herself.

"Well, you can talk to me, if you would like. " I hoped she would, so I wouldn't have to leave her. I didn't want to go back to bed and worry about if she would have another 'dream'.

She thought for a moment, " it started out when I was 10, I was asking him not to leave." army, right...."And as always he told me 'not for a while'. "

She told me about how he left and it only got worse. A few years passed and he came home again. It made things a little better, but then the inevitable came and he left." she went on to tell me how he died, and how they found out. It made me feel terrible, my father was still alive. He doesn't talk to my mom and I, so he might as well be dead to us. The only thing I knew about him was that he had gotten custody over my twin brother Harry when we were wee babies. My mum doesn't talk about it, so I don't know much.

I feel like I am poop, because my father is still alive and I don't even try to find him. While Ava, doesn't have her father anymore. And there's nothing she wants more than to have him back.

It feels like hours have passed by and I can tell she is tired, and I know she is. She decided to lay on my chest and talk, I, of course let her. I wasn't about to tell her no, I mean, that would be silly of me. I rested my head on hers. And listened to her voice as it got more and more quiet until she fell asleep.

She was so peaceful, it was heartbreaking. I wanted nothing more than to kiss her goodnight and hold her until we both woke up. I mean I was holding her, technically. But that was for comfort. Definitely not the kind of holding I wanted.

I meant to get up, and leave her to sleep. But before I could she said "don't go", and I couldn't decide whether or not she said it in her sleep. I stayed, I didn't want to upset her either way.

I never imagined I would ever fall asleep holding a girl.

Rephrase.

I never imagined I would have a girl spending the night with me. Even if we were only friends. Although...I wouldn't imagine 'just friends' slept like this. Stupid thought. Of course we were only friends.

'She doesn't like you like that." I said aloud to myself, and Ava started to stir.

I shut my mouth, and started to doze off. Still holding her, and my head still resting on hers. Even if this was only temporary, it felt right.

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I woke up to Ava panicking a little. She had her mouth shut tightly, looking as if she was trying not to breath. She was climbing over top of me, stumbling. It was truly a sight to see.

" what's wrong? Haha, you look hilarious!" I chuckled at her. Her eyes went wide and her cheeks flushed. I wasn't supposed to wake up, apparently. I am glad I did.

She stumbled her was away from the couch and got some distance between us.

"Morning breath. We ate tacos last night. My breath," she puffed from trying to catch her breath because she was refusing to breath.

"Upstairs, in my bathroom, in the bottom drawer. Extra toothbrushes. Consider it my Christmas gift to you." I laughed as she quickly made her way up. " I hope you like French toast! Cuz I am making it." I didnt care about my breath. It wasn't like I would be that close to anyone's nose. And I would be eating soon.

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We finished eating and I let her shower in my moms bathroom and gave her another pair of clothes.