missing💞 (Carlos Mena🤤)

Forty

the feeling of lunay's body against mine, felt so homely. i loved the feeling of his hands on my arms. rubbing slightly until he grabbed my hands and intertwined them.

Lunay: do you ever think about him?
Emily: huh?
Lunay: Carlos?

*flashback*

And here we were. My back pressed to the wall. Carlos so close to my face that if I move, our lips could touch.

Carlos: you have no idea how bad I've been wanting this...ever since I met you
Emily: well...it's not that easy Carlos..

I pushed him away slightly and smirked.

Carlos: come on..just a besito
Emily: nope..
Carlos: Emily..

He whispered in my ear which made get goosebumps. Him saying my name made me weak to the knees.

He looked at me again. And we slowly started leaning in. I wasn't gonna give in that easy though.

I only gave him a peck in the lips. I pulled away like after 3 seconds of our lips connecting.

Emily: there that was a besito

Carlos groaned.

Carlos: Emily..come on...dame otro

I bit my lip as I looked into his eyes. We stood there still while Sativa played downstairs. He looked at me with lustful eyes.

We both slowly started leaning in.

My breath got heavier before our lips connected again.

*not in flashback*

Emily: no
Lunay: you sure?
Emily: yeah
Lunay: i heard you..
Emily: what?
Lunay: i heard you say his name....in your sleep...

*flashback*

i watched as carlos packed a few pairs of clothes. barely able to see with all of the tears that were filling my eyes.

each tear slowly rolling down my cheek every time.

Emily: carlos come on-
Carlos: no Emily

him calling me emily tore my heart to pieces.

Emily: we just met up to talk-
Carlos: then what are those pic-
Emily: we were just hugging!
Carlos: he's your ex! no is friends with their ex-
Emily: don't fucking say that, i know you still talk to your ex
Carlos: i'm sorry i just can't
Emily: i can't believe you carlos, you're going to believe what everyone else is saying but you won't believe me!?
Carlos: i know he still likes you and i can't deal with that
Emily: i know that she still likes you but i'm still here-
Carlos: i need time ok?

*end of flashback*

Emily: what?

*flashback*

i watched as carlos looked at me making me weak.

Carlos: you know you're so beautiful
Emily: stop it carlos
Carlos: you are

we both chuckled as we both leaned in connecting our lips. we were both currently sitting down on the back of my car. watching the city lights, light up the dark night sky making the night look so much beautiful.

the cars driving fast. the sound of the honks and some of the music of the night clubs. everything giving life to the city.

the quiet music playing the back.

Emily: Carlos?
Carlos: yeah?
Emily: what did i do to deserve you?
Carlos: ummm...nothing

he chuckled after giving me a peck on my lips. i wrapped my arms around him.

Carlos: i love you...you know that right?
Emily: i love you too

he looked down at me with those cute eyes, making me lean in again. closing my eyes, and as soon as i feel his lips against mine...it felt like heaven.

*end of flashback*

Lunay: dont pretend you don't know what i'm talking about, se que lo amas!
Emily: quiet down, amaya is asleep
Lunay: i dont fucking care i know you love him still-

with that my eyes opened so fast. it was all just a dream. i looked next to me and lunay was soundly asleep. what have i done?

i don't want to break him he doesn't deserve it. he doesn't and i can't leave him. not just that amaya has gotten attached to him. i also can't do that to her.

we've become a family. a great family.

don't get me wrong, i love lunay...but i also love carlos.

but i feel like carlos doesn't love me.

i put my hands on my head and got out of bed quietly.

i shoved a couple of things in my bag. put lunay's hoodie on, put my flip flops on. i left the house.

it was raining. raining really hard.

my tears mixed with the rain and you couldn't tell if it was rain or tears.

i turned on my car and just drove. i needed to think. drove where? i don't know.

but i eventually got to Marisol's house.

i knocked on her the door. it was about 3:30 am.

she opened the door and she looked really tired. but she quickly changed her face when she saw me crying.

Marisol: what the fuck? are you ok?

and i let go. all of my tears. rolled down my cheeks. i was a living river.

marisol pulled me in and hugged me.

HEY GUYSSSS comment what i should do next. running out of ideas and i don't want to have a bad ending :( thank you so much if you're reading this! i love you all!