Heaven In Devil's Arms

▪ XII: Power to Kill

Cuddling with devil for the whole day is awesome. He hugged me tight and I love that. If we ever doesn't feel hunger as for being a human, maybe we could have cuddled forever. But no, that can't be.

Our differences are always there. I shouldn't forget it that if he is black, I am white. He's bad, I'm good. He's in hell, I'm in heaven. He signifies darkness, and I signifies light. He is the negative pole and I am the positive pole of a magnet.

Sometimes it hurts thinking about those things. And I think I should distance myself from devil, inch by inch.

We both know where we really belongs, there will come a time that I have to go back to heaven so as to him, in hell. We have to leave each other, falling inlove is not ideal in the first place. Loving him is forbidden that it makes it enchanted making it more tempting to try.

But I have to fight urges. Urges like fighting for this feelings. It's not that hard to fall inlove with Elijah.

I'm not even sure if the feeling's mutual. Or if I am sure to what I am feeling. Elijah is a total devil with his moodswings and maybe I mistook it sometimes when he is being protective and caring that I became hopeful that maybe devil has feelings for me. Plus, it came out from him, I am tempting him. Yes, an angel became an instrument into temptation. He didn't say he's falling. And that is two different things.

Here I am, confused and can't confirm.

What is that love felt by those creatures with a burning passion, commitment and an everlasting desire. Am I feeling the right feelings to define love? Is it because I'm in my human form? Will I still feel the same if I return being an angel again?

Is it possible for an angel or a devil to even fall inlove? We don't have beating hearts and we are to dedicate ourselves to our Lords. We are not really capable of feeling intimately inlove.

"Uh-eh, deep thoughts angel?" Nagulat ako sa pagsasalita ni Elijah. "Oh, maybe I should read your mind so I can----" I cutted him off. What a devil!

"Sabing don't read my mind e!" How many times did I tell that?!

He laughed as he continued cleaning the shower room. "Cute." He mumbled and I rolled my eyes. "I was just kidding." He added.

I've thinking about this and I think there's nothing wrong with it.

"Uhm, devil?" I called him and he 'hmm'-ed as a reply. "Can I go out today?" I asked.

He seemed to think. "Okay. I'll just continue this late----" His face lit up and I felt guilty.

"I mean, I, alone." I cutted him off. His face saddened. He seems to understand but I know, because I see it in his dark coal eyes, that he is sad! Ugh. He suddenly grinned and I can't help but feel nervous.

Devil let me out alone with his terms and conditions and I just obey. I am naturally obedient plus I thought it wasn't that hard.

Elijah asked me to be at home by 6, yes okay. Elijah asked me to wear clothes that covers all of my skin! He even wants me to use gloves and face mask, and I can't help but complain. What am I? A terrorist? Not that I am being judgemental but people are, I will just catch too many attentions. I ended up wearing a long sleeves blouse, a pants and a pair of rubber shoes. He also prohibited me from talking to other guys! Or else those guy, whoever they will be, he will burn them when he finds out!

Ang init, pero tiniis ko para lang makaalis sa bahay. Just as I said, I have to distance myself from devil, inch by inch. Kaya siguro ako nawiwindang sa kakaisip sa kanya ay dahil siguro siya lang ang napapakisamahan ko.

Pagkaalis ko ay nakita ko pa si Mang Erwin na nagdidilig. Ngumiti siya sa akin nang makahulugan at hinayaan ko na lamang iyon. Late na din siya magdilig dahil tanghaling tapat na, hindi ba't baka masunog lamang ang mga halaman niya? Ewan ko ba sa taong iyon kung may iba ba siyang agenda doon.

Bago ako umalis nang tuluyan kanina ay inalam ko ang kakaunting detalye na kailangan kong malaman, humingi din ako ng sapat na pera kay Elijah. Kaya naman nakarating ako sa isang tahimik na lugar. The place is covered with green grass and there's a lot of trees. I'm glad that people didn't cut those trees. People shouldn't cut trees, instead they should plant more. It is mainly created to let them benefit from it, I hope people will realize the imporatance of trees.

I'm the only one in this place so I just smile.

I transformed into my angel form. I know I might attract devils, but I can't eliminate the chance of attracting angels too. At least an guardian angel that could be a help for me.

But those things are just an add-ons to this transformation.

I really want to see my wings.

Ugh. Even though I can't see it yet I'm able to realize that it is still broke-----

"Angeli?" Gulat akong napalingon sa tumawag sa pangalan ko. It is a guy that I know I knew but failed to recognize. I can't deny it but angels are really naturally handsome.

But I guess devil is more handsome.

Ugh! Umalis nga ako sa bahay para makalimutan muna siya e!

"Who are you?" I calmly asked him. His brows furrowed.

"Enoch." He answered. "Why are you here? You're not a guardian angel." He added. That could have alarm me but I'm not into disobeying heaven! I didn't came here with my own will and intention, I fell! And I doubt too if he is a guardian angel.

He doesn't look like one.

"That I don't know." I answered. "I don't remember anything." I added. Totoo naman, maliban na lang siguro yung tungkol sa trabaho ni Archangel Metatron na tinanong ni Elijah. I don't mind that at all, that doesn't help.

So what angel is he? Does he also have mission?

"You fell?" He asked and I feel like hugging him! He knows, someone understands my situation besides Devil. Well, that is the only reason for being in human realm without any reasons, that an angel might have fell.

I ended up restraining myself from hugging Enoch. First, I remember what devil told me, if he will be burning Enoch I'm sure this angel will be sure dead. Second, I don't like the thought of feeling heaven in devil's arms and ending up hugging Enoch too just because I felt to. Lastly, I feel like I am betraying Devil!

Super unfair! Why am I feeling like a bad girlfriend?! We don't have that label. Okay, ang hirap nung wala kayong label.

"I fell and forgot some things." I said. "But a memory tells me that I am commanded to kill someone, that someone is a threat and only me can kill whoever that devil is." I added.

"Maybe because you are one of those who are capable of doing so." He said. "You're the angel of music afterall." He added.

Maybe he knows about what my power is. On how can I get my mission done.

"How?" I asked.

He heavily sighed. "I see, you forgot. You're the Angel of Music, Angeli. You have the power to kill devils and bad creatures using your voice, by singing." He said.

Thought I can sing in a rhythm together with devil's heartbeat. That thought is very wrong.

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