Heaven In Devil's Arms

▪ XIV: Musèi

Devil immediately pulled me away from him and I can't help but frown. He stared at me like I was a lost diamond but now found.

"Damn devil." I heard Enoch uttered in pain, I couldn't see Enoch anymore as Elijah pulled me to him.

"Nah-uh, it is damned not damn." Elijah answered.

"What have you done?!" I hissed at Elijah while he is smirking like a retarted devil!

"Shaina, a little burn in the foot won't kill a Godsent like him, right Enoch?" I saw how Elijah smirked and I just glared at him.

"Wouldn't it be better getting off killed by music? How about that devil?" Enoch countered to Elijah.

"Shut up and leave already, Enoch." I said full of conviction. He is referring to me killing off devil by music! I already told myself, I will battle for heaven but not against Elijah!

"Are you okay?" Devil asked when Enoch flee away. I saw tender in his dark coal eyes as he held my scalded hands because of his burning fist. "I'm sorry for this Angel." He said full of tender.

I bury myself again in his sexily toned chest. I felt Devil hugged me tight as he gently combed my hair using his hands. It is gentle and very comforting. The comfort he gave me made me faintly cried in confusion, fear and pain.

Confused of what am I feeling towards him. I tried going away but I failed, he's always on my mind. Confused because why do I feel like I need him everyday? I know I used to live without him, now it feels like I need him to every breath I take. Like I have to see him in every waking moment. Confused for what is really my mission, why do I have a gift like this? Why am I one of those chosen to kill devils? Why I was the ordered for this task? Why I was forced? Who forced me? And such.

Feared because I have encountered a devil other than Elijah, where I felt what danger truly means. In my whole angelic life, that was the only time I felt hopeless, scared and scattered. Feared because I saw the demise in Elijah's power. Feared for what my power can do. Scared for what I had discover. I can't imagine myself killing other creatures. Now I am scared in everything.

Pained.

Pained because I can't return and I know I don't want to anymore. Pained because I am torn between doing my orders and staying with Elijah for the rest of my immortal life. Pained because I know we can't be. Pained because when I got my mission done I have to leave him. I won't see him again, no, not ever. Pained because it has been our aim: he'll return me to heaven and I'll go back there.

If only I could just don't get my mission done and stay with him in human realm as we are angels and devils forever. But no, every mission has due time. I don't know when is mine which makes things worse.

Baka isang araw mawala na lang ako, hindi man lang nakapagpaalam. Hindi man lang nasabi kay Elijah itong nararamdaman ko kahit pa isa iyong malaking sugal.

I am scared that I might leave someday without saying anything but I am a lot scared of telling Devil about my feelings. Those confusions and fears.

Or maybe it is better to regret not telling him about it. Kasi kung susugal ako, paano kung masusuklian niya? Masasaktan lang kami. I doubt that, Devil liking me? I am only a temptation for him. That's all.

Purely a temptation.

Sana hindi na lang ako nahulog, sana maayos ang lahat. Hindi ko sana ito mararamdaman. Bakit ko ito pinagdadaanan? I want to go back in heaven, not with Godfather but in Devil's arms. And here I am, in his arms. Would it be a sin? Can I stay like this forever?