Heaven In Devil's Arms

▪ XX: All The Memories

"You have to kill him, Angeli. You have to kill Elijah."

"You are the only one Angel of Music Angeli. Kill him."

"Sing a song to him Angeli. You have to kill Elijah."

"Angeli.."

"Angeli.."

"Shaina!"

I immediately opened my eyes as I heard a voice shouting a name.

I looked around and spotted a guy staring worriedly at me. I noticed his dark aura. Napaatras ako hanggang sa nauntog ako sa pader. Napadaing ako sa sakit pero hindi iyon ang dapat kong isipin sa ngayon kundi ang lalaki sa harapan ko.

"Sino ka?! Sino si Elijah?!" I asked. I don't even why I am here. I was in heaven doing spiritual garlands. "Devil!" I shouted. He is in his human form but I am certain that he is a devil because of his dark aura.

Napatigil ako ng may mapansin ako. I am in my human form too. Why am I in this form? I should be in my angel form. I am an angel, I am the Angel of Music. I also felt a pain in my hand so I took a look at it and realized it is scalded. I looked at him with confusion and fear. Most importantly, who is this devil? Why are we in the same room? Isn't it a sin? Why does he look so worried about me? What is the pain visible in his dark coal eyes?

What is this enticing feeling towards him?

"Shaina.." He almost whispered with a rumbled voice. He intently looked at me, he way he looked at me, his eyes, they all seems to be familiar. Like I used to stare at them. I want to touch his face but I am preventing myself. I shouldn't touch a devil, he could just kill me in an instant.

"I am not Shaina!" I am Angeli, and there is no way I am going to tell him my angelic name. He is a devil and yet.. and yet why there is a part of me that somehow trusts him? There is a part of me that knows him.

"You are my Shaina." He said as he tried to reach for my hand but I immediately casted it away. I looked at him with despised, who is he to touch me?

But there is also a part of me that wants to hold him too. That longs for him. Now it is confusing, I want to know.

"Don't you ever touch me Devil!" I shouted at him trying to hide the confusion inside me. "No creature from hell owns me!" I added stressing my affirmation. I feel like he really owns me somehow.

"Shaina please. Don't do this to me."

I froze when his eyes started to cry. The pain in my heart doubled, I felt how my every heartbeat stung. I don't even know that an angel's heart has beats. This is my first time feeling this, or so I thought? I stared at him trying to assess everything about him. A devil is crying in front of me and I don't know why. Or maybe I knew it all along? I can feel the pain in those tears, the pleading and longing. I can see the familiarity in his eyes, the feeling like I am living with him for some time. I want to touch him and feel him. I really want to, but I have to avoid myself from any forms of danger.

And he is a great danger. He can kill me.

"W-who are you?" I asked wondering. I looked intently at him while he is crying. His voice, his aura, his face they all look familiar. Like I have touched him before.

Dahan dahan siyang lumapit sa akin. I couldn't move so I let him, he drew nearer until he is able to give me a hug. A tight hug. The warmness from his arms are familiar. I felt his heartbeat, angels and devils doesn't have heartbeat.

But now I am hearing his as I heard mine.

"Shaina.. I know you will never forget me in your heart." He cried in my neck. I can feel his warm tears. I don't know but a tear escaped from my eyes as the rain started to pour down outside. I stared blankly by the window. I don't know what to feel. I felt like I lost almost half of me, I felt empty. It feels like my heart is full of memories but my mind could only recall, was I, making spiritual garlands in heaven.