Heaven In Devil's Arms

▪ XVIII: Gray Feathers

Mag-iisang buwan na simula nang mahulog ako at makita ni Elijah. Halos isang buwan na akong nakatira kasama siya. I don't know if it is part of his plans to make me attracted to him and made me trust him but seeing my scalded hand is giving me doubts.

I shouldn't have really trusted Elijah at the first place. He is a devil afterall, a pawn of hell with so much power.

I sneaked by the window on our bedroom while he is cleaning the kitchen. I jumped out of the window and changed into my angel form. I fell on Mang Erwin's backyard but since I am in my angel form the old man won't see me.

"Ouch." I flinched as I fell. I can't fly because my wings are still broke. I only transform into this form so that I won't be seen and to at least have a safe landing.

Nagsimula akong maglakad paalis. Napatingin ako sa pakpak ko at nalungkot. Some of my feathers turned gray. I don't remember committing a sin. Almost half of my wings are gray as if I have kissed other creature. I never kissed anyone since I fell.

There are still white feathers, only means there is still hope. I am losing time. Malapit na ang deadline ko at nauubos na ang puting hibla sa pakpak ko.

Hindi ko alam kung saan ako nakapunta, naglakad lang ako nang naglakad. I didn't really planned about this, I just want to escape from Elijah's arms.

Though I'm sure I miss him.

I shookt my head in such a thought. I know I am feeling something special for Elijah but my responsibility as an angel is more important than him.

"Finally saw you, Angeli."

Napaangat ako ng tingin sa nagsalita. Napaatras ako. The combination of white and black aura. The white right wing and black left wing..

"A-astra?"

I can't be mistaken! She is Astra. She smiled at me.

"What happened to your feathers?" She asked. I raised my brows, she is the Angel of Celestial Bodies, she should know. She is able to see someone's past and future, even the forgotten ones.

I don't know how can she do that but I am certain about her powers. Her appearance right now is only a proof that she is real. There is really someone like Astra in heaven.

"I don't know." Which is true. I believe I didn't commit any grave sins to make half of my feathers turn gray, it's like I kissed other creature.

"I see." She said. She touched my wings which I couldn't see where, I just felt her touched it. "Someone plucked a feather from you." She added.

Plucked? It can cause us partial lost of a certain memory. Could it be the memory about yesterday? I didn't changed into my angel form! Hindi rin ako umalis ng bahay at sino namang kukuha ng balahibo sa pakpak ko?

Or maybe the ones I forgotten was the memory after I and Elijah cuddled!

But how? How did it all happened? I looked at my scalded hand, it is the same as Mang Erwin's. Is it related?

Maaari nga bang dahil ito kay Elijah? Pero paano naman magkakaroon ng kaparehong paso si Mang Erwin mula kay Elijah?

"You are Astra, right?" I tried to confirm. I wasn't really sure. I don't remember that much about heaven after I fell but I am able to recall the stories connected to Archangel Metatron so as to Astra, since she resides in Archangel Metatron's jurisdiction. Also some basic knowledge about heaven.

"I thought you were sure." She said. "Yes I am Astra." She added.

"Then can you tell me why did I fell? Did someone pushed me?" I asked, it is Elijah's theory. I know I denied that to him because I trust every angel but I'm doubting everyone right now. Even Elijah whom I trusted so much.