I was released from the hospital a few days later. Regina and Angie spent every and all day with me. At night when she took Angie home I kissed both of them goodbye. There is something inside of me that's making me feel guilty about my feelings for Regina. I kept thinking is it to early since Zelena's death to start feeling something for someone else especially when I'm having feelings for Zelena's sister. Before I got released from the hospital I called Dr. Hopper. Luckily he wasn't busy at the moment and was able to stop in and talk to me. I told him all my feelings of guilt and maybe even some anxiety about getting into a relationship where there is a possibility of loosing them like I lost Zelena. I really don't think I can go through that again. I was really a shell of myself for a long time. Archie listened to all my concerns and he told me it's natural to have all these feelings. I suffered an incredible loss that most people can't deal with. He also said that coming to him now was a very good sign that I understand there could be a problem and he praised me for my good choice in getting help now. We talked for I while and I began to see things a lot better. It's ok if I pursue this relationship with Regina and it's ok for me to start to live my life, a life where it's ok to still love Zelena and it's also ok to love someone else who can love me in a way that Zelena no longer can. Regina is so wonderful with Angelica so that right there is a bonus. As Archie and I were finishing up talking Regina and Angie came in. She had a concerned look on her face. "Good afternoon. Is everything ok?" She asked as she looked at me. "Ya Archie was checking up on me. I should be released soon". Regina smiles as Angie reaches out to me and I take her in my arms. I hold her tight and kiss her head. "I love you so much baby girl". She lays on my shoulder and snuggles into me. Archie bids us all a good day. Once he leaves Regina sits in the chair he was in and moves it closer to me. "How are you feeling today?" "I feel good. I'm not really in any pain just a little uncomfortable". She smiles at my words. Angie sits up and reaches out for Regina. I laugh a bit as Regina takes her and sits her on her lap. She takes a toy out of the diaper bag and Angie grabbed it. "She still being good for you?" "Yes. She's wonderful. She's such a happy baby. She just wants to play and crawl around all the time. She's so curious about everything. She's definitely keeping me on my toes". "Oh. I'm sure she does. I'll put her in her playpen and she picks up all of her toys and examines them. Then she'll put it down and crawl to another one". "So that was nice of Archie to stop by and see you". "Yeah, well I actually called him and asked to talk to him". "Oh. Is everything ok?" "Yes. I was just having some feelings that needed to be worked out a little". She gives me a look like she doesn't like where this conversation could be heading. "Since our talk the other day I've had feelings of happiness and guilt. I really like where things with us may be going but I also felt guilty like I was giving up my feelings for Zelena". She just nods along with my words. "He told me that it was perfectly normal to have these feelings. He explained that this is all part of moving on". "Are we moving to fast Emma. If you aren't ready I understand". "No Regina that's not why I'm telling you this. I'm telling you because I want to be honest about my feelings. It's not fair to keep this part of myself from you. I really want to have a relationship with you. It's just the guilt part was bothering me so I called Archie. In my head I feel like I'm sort of being an asshole because my wife is dead and here I am moving on with my life and feeling happy". "It's ok to start living again Emma". She says very tenderly as she places her hand on mine. "That's what Archie said. That it's all part of the life process". "Did what he said to you make you feel better?" "Yes it actually did. Are you ok with everything I just told you?" "Yes Emma and Thank you. I think in order for this to work we both need to be honest like this at all times". It was nice to be able to talk to Regina about this. A few minutes later the doctor came in to explain my home care. No working for at least another 6 to 8 weeks. No lifting anything heavier than 15 to 20 pounds. Proper diet, light exercise, plenty of rest blah blah blah. I basically tuned him out because I just wanted to get out of there. Regina helped me change into some sweatpants and a t-shirt. I felt bad when she had to tie my sneakers for me but when I tried I nearly busted my stitches and the pain I got was unbelievably awful. I signed the release forms and the nurse and Regina made me get into the wheelchair to be wheeled out of the hospital. We pulled into my driveway and we got out of the car. I went to open the door to get Angie out when Regina stopped me. "Ms. Swan. What do you think you are doing. The doctor told you no lifting". "It's just the baby Regina. Relax". "I will relax when you step out of the way and let me get her". I let out a big sigh. "Fine. I'll go grab my bag then". "No you will not. If you want to help me please go open the door". "I'm not a child Regina". She gives me a look and points to the door. I turn and slowly walk to the door. I unlock it and go inside. I go into the living room and sit down on the couch. Ok I admit it that a took a little more out of me than I thought it would. Regina comes in and puts the baby in the playpen. "I'm going back out to get the bags. Do not pick up that child Ms. Swan. If you want to hold her I will get her for you when I come back". When I don't give her an answer she looks at me with a raised eyebrow. I raised my right hand. "I promise that I will not pick up Angelica". She nods and leaves to go get the bags. I look over at Angie and say. "I think auntie Gina is losing her mind". When she came back she had Angie's diaper bag, my bags from the hospital, 2 suitcases and a small makeup travel bag. "Regina what is all this?" "Your clothes from the hospital, this is Angie's suitcase that I packed for her to take to my house, and these are my clothes". "Why do you have your clothes?" "I know I'm being a little presumptuous but I thought you'd rather I stay here instead of your mother". "Ok. I'm a little confused. Why would I need anyone to stay here. I mean I'm happy to spend more time with you but I ". She cuts me off. "Emma you really can't expect to be staying here alone. You can't carry Angie around and you definitely can't be carrying her up and down the stairs". "Regina I'll be fine. The doctor said I can't lift over 20 pounds. When I last took her for a check up she was only 16". "She weighs 20.6 pounds now. She had an appointment last week so I took her". "Oh. How was everything?" "Just fine. The doctor said she is growing exactly as she should". "That's great. Thank you for taking her". "Not a problem. So back to our conversation. If you'd like you can have your mother stay". "No. That's ok. Thank you". She laughs and nods. "Are you hungry or do you want anything?" "Surprisingly I'm not hungry right now but there is 2 things I would like". "And what would that be?" "Some ice cold water to drink would be great and I would really like to take a shower soon". "Ok. I'll go get you some water and then we can take Angie upstairs for her nap and I'll help you in anyway I can". A few minutes later Regina picks up Angie and takes her upstairs for her nap. When she comes back to the living room I'm trying with all my might to stand up. She lets out a little chuckle and says. "Still think you can be here alone?" "Are you gonna laugh at me or help me?" She comes over to help me up. "Thank you". I slowly make it to the stairs and I'm even slower walking up the stairs. Regina walks right by me like it's nothing carrying her suitcases. "Show off". I call out making her laugh. I finally make it to the top and stand there taking a few breaths. "You ok?" "Yeah. This is more difficult than I expected. When they made me walk around the hospital to get me moving, I thought that hurt. That was nothing compared to these stairs". She takes my arm and walks me to my bedroom. I sit down on the bed and kick my sneakers off. Regina picks them up and puts them next to my closet. She then goes to the bathroom and I hear her open and close the closet door that's in there. Probably getting me some towels. She comes out and asks what I'd like to where when I get out of the shower. I said just a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt is fine. She takes out one of each from my draw. She asks if I wanted a pair of my boxers as well but I shake my head no. She brings my clothes into the bathroom. "Ok. You ready?" "Yeah I guess". She helps me up and we walk to the bathroom. "Do you think you'll be ok alone?" "Yeah. I should be". "Ok. I'll be right out waiting in your bedroom in case you need anything". "Thank you Regina". She gives me a smile and walks out and closes the door. It wasn't easy taking a shower but I eventually finished up. I wasn't able to wash my hair but maybe Regina can help me that later. When I was dried off I put my t-shirt on but my sweatpants I had more trouble with. I wrapped a towel around my waist and I opened the bathroom door. Regina was sitting on the lounger I have in my room. "Regina I really hate to ask, but I can't bend over to get my sweatpants on. Could you please help me?" She quickly gets up. "Of course Emma. That's why I'm here". "Regina before you do that, you remember about me having a ahh. ahh." "Yes Emma. I remember that you have a penis. It's ok to use that word". She laughs a bit. "You have a towel around you and I'll only lift your pants up high enough so you can grab onto them ok?" I nod. "Thank you. Sorry if was acting stupid. It's just we haven't even had a date yet I just didn't want to come off like I'm flaunting my stuff at you". She laughs again. "Oh Emma you are adorable". I put my feet in and she pulls the pants up just a little past my knees and I was able to get them the rest of the way. "There ya go. All better?" "Yes thank you again". I walk out of the bathroom and sit on the bed. Regina comes out with my clothes and towels. "Regina you don't have to clean up after me". "Oh shush. Why don't you lay down for a while and get some rest". I do as I'm told and she leaves the room and closes the door.
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A Twist Of Fate
FanfictionWhat happens when Regina finds out who her best friend Emma is dating and will they be able to mend their friendship after they are rocked by an unexpected tragedy?