Playing With Fire (Liskook Fanfic)

Chapter 54: He who waited outside

Lalisa Manoban

The car was so silent after we dropped off Yugyeom to his house.

The atmosphere was also heavy because of Bambam's mood.

While I, on the passenger seat, don't want to talk about anything for I know where everything will lead to.

"I'm sorry."

That's the first thing I heard when my cousin stopped the car in front of my apartment.

I stopped unbuckling my seatbelt and turned to him.

"I'm sorry about those words earlier... I was just... you're my cousin and I should protect you from all these things happening to you right now yet I don't exactly know what I have to do."

The concern laced in his voice.

I half-smiled, "I was hurt, truthfully. But I understand where you're coming from. I understand your harsh way of protecting me."

He chuckled, "So I am harsh."

I nodded my head and smiled, "I'll be fine, Bammie. Maybe not now, but soon."

He looked at me pitifully, "Do you want a hug?"

My eyes glistened because he knows how I badly wanted one.

"It's been awhile, isn't?"

He nodded his head, smiling. Maybe he was also reminiscing those times whenever I feel down and hurt then I would run to him and he would make me calm down.

Those times... my parents were the only reason why I was sad then after being calmed by Bambam everything will passed like a blur and I'm alright again. I was happy again.

But now, I don't think a hug can erase every feelings inside me.

The man I left has that strong impact on me.

"How many minutes?" My cousin asked.

I raised my hand to put up a five.

He grinned, "Come here, then."

I moved near to him and he hugged me.

The familiar warmth welcomed me and I closed my eyes as I felt my eyes brimming with tears.

"How much do love Jungkook, Lili?" He asked in our hug.

Immeasurable. Invaluable. Priceless.

That's what I wanted to say but I chose to not say it. Bambam will know my answer in my silence.

He gently pat my back.

"I'm mad at him for hurting you like this. I'm disappointed he made this all happen. I'm mad at myself because I let him get into you. But... Lili, I can't be irrational into seeing things. I may have been avoiding him, making him feel like I'm angry at him for hurting you, but he's still my friend, one of the best and I know him really well... so I want to ask you, Lali...

... why did you let go of Jungkook when he chose you? Why did you let go of that happiness?"

My tears were falling down as I remembered everything that was happening to us for the last few days.

Jungkook's father...

Mina in the hospital...

Jungkook's plead...

His tired eyes.

Mina's happiness.

His cold face.