Gray

Chapter XX

Hindi man lang nagulat si Kiel nang tawagin ko siya sa kanyang pangalawang pangalan. I was right. The man from my dreams is none other than Kieffer Elijah Alvirez.

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang nararamdaman ko nang makita ulit siya ngayon. The man who promised me marriage at an early age is Kiel, the only man I have ever loved. Kahit nakutuban ko na noon ay nagulat pa rin ako.

But why did he denied it when I asked him about it? Sinungaling!

Natatakot ba siya na baka malaman kong may kinalaman siya sa pagkamatay ni Liam? O baka natatakot siyang malaman kong wala siyang nagawa? Oh my gosh, this man didn't do anything for my brother! And I thought he love us! He said he loves me! Pero bakit wala siyang ginawa para maayos ang kaso ni Liam?

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang unang mararamdaman. But my immediate action was to push him away. I didn't want to see him.

"Get out," utos ko but he didn't move.

"Aristelle," he whispered. Napapikit ako sa kanyang malumanay na boses. Convincing myself I shouldn't be hypnotized by his warm voice.

"I said, get out!" Nanginginig kong sigaw at nagawa pang kumuha ng unan para itapon sa kanya. Please, get out. Bago ko pagtaksilan ang sariling kapatid at tumakbo para yakapin ka!

Mommy is crying on Daddy's arms. Si Kassandra naman ang dumalo sa akin para pigilan ang hindi ko maintindihan na galit.

I feel so hot with all of these anger I am feeling. Bahagyang tumango si Kiel at pinulot ang unang binato. Maingat siyang naglakad palapit at dinala niya iyon sa akin. I jerked to avoid any contact from him. Ni hindi ko siya tinignan nang ipatong niya ang unan sa aking tabi. Tahimik lang itong lumabas at tinuloy ko ang pag-iyak.

Daddy called my doctor while Mommy gave me and Kassandra some privacy.

"What's wrong? Did Kiel did something from the past that made Liam..." Hindi niya tinuloy, at hindi ko rin sinagot.

Hinawakan niya ang mga kamay kong nababasa ko ng sariling mga luha. Hindi ko na alam kung ano ang gagawin ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang totoo. Why? Why did he lied to me? Ano ang dahilan?

"Hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari, Aris. But... you shouldn't do something when you're angry. You might regret it..." She whispered her last sentence pero iyon ang tumatak sa akin.

The doctor came in. Tulala lang ako at para bang lahat ng nangyari kay Liam ay kahapon lang. Everything feels so fresh and it hurts so bad.

"Her emotions are heightened," Paliwanag ng doktor sa mga emosyon kong hindi ko makontrol.

"In some cases, normal lang iyon kapag nalabanan ang dissociative amnesia. Every blocked memory from her past can affect her emotions well. Those memories are blocked for some reason. Her brain doesn't want her to remember things from her traumatic experience."

"Bakit po bigla siyang nakaalala?" Si Kassandra.

Tumango si Mommy at dumagdag pa, "Oo nga, I thought she'll lose those memories for good..."

"Her memories might resurface on their own or after being triggered by something in her surroundings." Doctor Reyes answered. Raf. I think he triggered my memories to come back!

Pagkatapos magpasalamat ay umalis na ang doktor. The anger subsided, and Kassandra was right. I shouldn't have done something I'd regret.

"But I... I don't understand.."

Dinaluhan ako ni Mommy para hagudin ang likod "Ang alin, anak?"

"I asked Kiel if he knew Liam before... and he said no," kunot noo kong tanong. Finally letting myself get suggestions from others.