The Alpha's Queen

Chapter 17

-Chapter 17-

I stared blankly into the woods behind the graveyard.

I couldn't bring myself to look at her. Well....her grave.

I turned as I felt a presence behind me.

"Everyone has already left." Josie said, giving me a strained smile, "You should go to. You have to go back to Colorado."

"Yeah, I'll just.." I trailed off as I looked towards her grave where Rayan was sitting with his head in his hands.

"He won't even look at me." I whispered looking down at my feet as I leaned on the gates of the graveyard, "I just know he blames me too. Just like everyone else."

"Corinna," Josie said as she grabbed my shoulders, "Nobody blames you, okay? It's not your fault. If someone is to be blamed, it's all three of us. It was not your decision solely. Stop blaming yourself, please. And about Rayan, go talk to him. He needs you just as much as you need him."

"Corinna."  I looked up with tears eyes at Victor who came and stood beside Josie.

"Listen to her," he said as he caressed my cheek, "There are some things in life we just have to let go of. Some things that happen even though we don't want them too. Not always can we stop everything, but that's life. That's just how cruel this world is. We have to move one. Sam wouldn't want us to be miserable. Doesn't matter what happened. It was her choice to make, not yours. Please forgive yourself and her. We have to move on. I'm not saying it'll be easy. But we have to try."

I nodded and then chuckled through my tears, "When did you get so wise Vicky?"

"Aren't I always?" He smirked, "Now go to him. He needs you."

I nodded as I entered the graveyard, taking slow and steady steps.

I sighed as I closed my eyes and recalled the past few hours. It's been exactly a week since Samantha died and today was her funeral. Today was the most painful day of my life. Watching my best friend getting buried. Her parents were miserable and I couldn't help but let the guilt consume me even more. It was eating at my insides and I couldn't do anything to stop it.

Rayan, who is the strongest and happiest person out of all of us couldn't hold himself together, then who am I to. But who can blame him, he just lost the love of his life. He's bound to be the most miserable one of us all.

Sighing, I picked up my pace and went and stood next to him. Taking a seat beside him, I put my hand on his shoulder to get his attention.

He turned to me with bloodshot eyes. Without saying anything, he turned his gaze back towards her grave.

I sighed as I retreated my hand and whispered, "I know you blame me too and I cannot portray how sorry I am. I just wish you can bring yourself to forgive me."

"I don't blame you." He deadpanned without even looking at me. "It was her choice, not yours."

"Then why are you ignoring me?" I asked as I sighed heavily.

"I'm not." He deadpanned again.

"I'm sorry Rayan," I muttered swallowing the forming lump in my throat as I tried to keep the sobs at bay, "I'm really sorry."

I buried my face in my hands as sobs rocked my body.

I heard him sigh before he enveloped me in his arms, resting his chin on my head. "It's not your fault Cori, it really isn't. I admit that for a second, I did blame you. But I'm sorry I did that. And it's not your fault. It's not."