Love and Tears

[Love and Tears] part 7.

***Jay's P.O.V*** 

I'd lost her. To a job. Was this serious? As soon as I started to feel the slightest amount of emotion for her, I lost her. Maybe it was for the best? Maybe it WAS a sign. I didn't know what was this happening with her, to be honest, I didn't know what was happening with me, but what I did know was I needed to sleep. 

At night I lay in bed, her cold words running through my head. I tried to force myself to sleep, but it was no use. I kept thinking about her. Why? I didn't know her, not really. All these feelings where overwhelming, something I had never experienced before. I decided I wasn't going to loose it and on Sunday morning I would go back to her job and see if we could sort it out. On that note, I slept peacefully, knowing for the plan for the next day. 

On the Sunday morning I had made an extra special effort to try and win 'this' over. I put my most expensive fragrance on and wore my best clothes. I brushed my hair to try and put it perfectly in place. Callie was a tough one. Not at all what I had expected. I spent especially long brushing my teeth, incase I did win her over and she rewarded me with a kiss. It's not a crime to think big. Well I hope not because that's what I was doing. Why did Callie, a Previous unatractive nerd, do this to me? My views had tally changed about her. 

I recieved a text from Sean. It wrote, "Hey dude. What's up?" 

I replied, "Everything man." 

He replied, "Explain? By the way, did you win your fake date Callie over yet to make Rebecca jelous yet? Did the bracelet and beach work?"  

I replied, "Its her. I'm falling for her, Sean. The day went great! Then all of a sudden I started having these weird feelings for her. I rang her to see how she was and she started yelling at me. She said whatever we had was over. I feel terrible." 

He replied, "Wait, woah. You actually like her?" 

I wrote, "Yeah. I didn't know I would though. It wasn't meant to happen like this." 

He replied, "Wow!" 

"I know! And I don't know what to do now. I'm leaving shortly to go to her house to see if I can fix this." I started to delete my messages. I deleted all but one, as I was distracted as I recieved another text from Sean saying, "Good luck, man." I deleted that too. I didnt like to think about it. I forgot to delete the second one Sean text me. I then deleted all my sent messages and placed the phone in my pocket. 

I decided I would walk to Callie's. This way I can sort everything out in my wad and think about what to sat to Callie. I strolled along the pavement as the car, busses, lorries and bicycles drove by. Even the honking of the cars couldn't distract me from my deep thought. I tried to think of something sensitive and heart warming to say to her, but my mind seemed to have gone blank. I stressed myself into thinking positive and hoped that everything would go smoothly.  

As I approached her work place I stood outside. It was like something took over my body and I couldn't breathe. I was hesitant of entering, however I finally plucked up the courage to and I tentatively walked into the bulding. What was she going to do? Kill me? After smiling politley at the receptionist, I made my my way towards her dorm, breathing quickly. I knocked. She peeped her head around the door before rolling her eyes at me. She looked awful. She had very dark bags around her red eyes. Her skin lost the natural tan of it as it turned pale. Her lips were no longer plump and red, but they were small and dry. This didn't make me unatracted to her in any way, all I wanted to do was hug her and make everything OK. 

"What?" She asked, weakly. 

"Callie? Please may I come in?"  

"This isn't my home to say. Sorry." She replied, trying to close the door. I placed my foot in it.