Started with a Dare

Started with a Dare • Trust Issues

I grabbed my bag and went home. As I walked home I felt empty inside, I lost my only friend, my crush. Now I'm alone, but I don't care. I'm fine without anyone, well ok it's not fine. I've been somewhat, cutting. Ever since I lost my only friend, Christina. She told me that she would never leave my side, but it's time to forget the past. I get home and I go inside, upstairs to my room. I change into an over-sized hoodie and just some short shorts. I then take off my makeup and lay in bed, I went on my laptop to continue working on a project I've been working on for a long time. I then hear a knock on my window but I ignore it, I hear another knock and get up. I go to my window and move the curtain a bit. I see the group that put pain in me. Jack, Taylor, Christina, and Gavin. Why would they come to me? I ignore them and go back to my bed. I then hear another knock on the window, it started to rain. I felt bad but then again, they were the one's who hurt me the most, I got up and went to my bathroom and grabbed a box from the cabinet. I opened it and took out a sharp tool. I couldn't help it, I started making cuts on my arm. I started to cry as I put the stuff away. I walked out of the bathroom and heard more knocks, I go to the window and open the curtains. They're still there, soaking wet. I want to let them in but I'm not sure how to confront this situation, I open the window slowly with hesitation. They all come in soaking wet. I close the window shut and still have tears running down my cheeks. I didn't want to look at any of them. I feel an hand being placed on my shoulder, I knew it was Jack so I stepped away from. 

Jack: y/n....

You: what do you guys want?

Christina: we wanted to say that we're very sorry

You: yea whatever, you can leave now

Jack: I'm sorry for being a asshole to you

You: yea and I won a million dollars 

Gavin: I'm sorry for being a horrible boyfriend back when we dated

You: you guys can leave now

Taylor: and I'm sorry for all the things I said about you

You: great now leave

Jack: you're not even gonna forgive us?

You: I don't think you guys realize the things you did to me. Gavin, you abused me and gave me a shit load of scars and bruises. Christina, you left my side when years ago you told me you would never leave me. Taylor, you came out of absolutely nowhere and started just calling me names. And Jack, I don't even know what to say about you. You've put me through the most pain, you accused me of using you, called me a bitch, and so much more. And now you're all just gonna expect me to forgive you? This is exactly why I have trust issues now. 

They all stayed silent, I didn't even know what else to say. I left my room and went downstairs, I sat on the couch and looked at my arm. The blood started to dry up and to be honest it hurt. I felt someone sit down next to me. I see Jack, he takes my arm and sees the cut.

Jack: why'd you do this to yourself?

You: cause I thought I lost you and Christina

Jack: I would never leave you

You: but you did Jack

I started to cry as he pulled me into his chest, I stayed there and cried in his chest.

Jack: I'm so sorry y/n, I regret leaving you.

The other's came into the room and sat on the couch with us, Taylor sat next to me so I looked at her. 

Taylor: I truly am sorry for everything y/n. In fact, I think Jack would be better if he dated you.

You: no it's fine Taylor really. I appreciate it but you deserve to be with him

Christina: y/n....this is everything you've ever wanted

You: well it wouldn't really make any sense if I dated him

I got up and went upstairs to my room, I close the door and lock it. I knew I loved Jack but it was the right thing to do, he's too popular for me and I'm just the quiet girl. I laid in bed and put my earbuds in. I listened to music as I drifted off to sleep. I wake up the next morning and roll out of bed, I get up then go to my closet. I decided to dress normal today so I grabbed some clothes and got ready.

I grab my bag and go downstairs, I walk out of my house then walk to school. As I'm walking, I'm kicking a tiny pebble on the ground and thinking about what could've happened if I said yes to dating Jack. I get to school and go to my locker but as I'm walking, everyone is looking at me like they've never seen my before. I ignored it though. I get to my locker and open it, I didn't feel like being here today. Even though me and the others are good now, I still feel empty inside. I notice my cuts are showing but I didn't care. I wanted to be with Jack the thing is, nobody else wants us together. I feel a pair of arms wrap around my waist, I turn around and see Jack. I close my locker and take a step away from him. 

You: what do you want Jack?

Jack: I just wanted to talk to you

You: well I have to get to class bye

I walk away to my first class of the day, I wanted to talk to him but I was too nervous. I didn't know why, I've talked to him before. Maybe cause yesterday the first time we talked in a while and sense we're at school, it feels more weird. 

~Time Skip~ 

The last bell of the day rang and I went to my locker. I opened it and so many confetti's came popped out right in my face. There was a note, I opened it and it said 'Turn around' it didn't say from who. I crumpled the note into a ball and threw it into my locker, I closed my locker and walked out of the school. I walked home and on the way, I see a car pull up next to me. I look and see Christina and Taylor.

Christina: need a ride?

I smile and get in the passenger seat. Christina continues to do drive to my house and soon enough we get there. I get out and offer them to come inside, they said yes so we all went inside and upstairs to my room. I toss them on of my hoodies each and we all change into the hoodies, we felt more comfortable with no pants and just underwear on under.