lucy, i'm drunk

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- lucy, im drunk -
[ lucy's pov ]

"bye momma" i kiss my moms cheeks as she leaves the apartment for her work.

i dont know if i should be happy because ill have the whole apartment to myself or i should be sad because ill miss her.

"no boys. no parties. no anything i wouldn't do okay?"

i nod.

"okay give momma another kiss, ill miss you baby..." she kisses my forehead

"ill miss you more..."

"okay, bye bye!" she closes the door.

when she left i decided to clean the whole apartment while blasting mac 10 by trippie redd.

"if i want it, i take it, we snatch shit." i rap along.

i put on some flips flops, put my hair up a bun and grab the garbage and leave the apartment. i go at the garbage can at the back of the building and i throw it out.

it was raining so i quickly tried to do everything. i ran into the building then my phone kept on ringing.

i checked who was calling me and i see chris name on my phone making me nervous.

i decided to answer though.

"fuck. fuck. fuck. no...." i hear chris voice.

"hello?"

"hey..." he says "i accidentally called you... its just.... its raining and probably the rain drop called you..." he laughs. i also chuckle.

"i haven't seen you in a while and summer just started..." he sighs.

"i know, its alright... i just want to apologize for tyso-" i get interrupted by him hanging up on me.

-

maria, im drunk by travis scott was playing as the rain was falling. i could hear the raindrops fall to my window. it calmed me down even though i was still overthinking.

it was two in the morning but i couldnt sleep. i dont know the reason. is it because im worried for chris or because my insomnia is coming back?

as i overthink i hear a knock on my door.

i grab a knife from the kitchen and slowly start getting close to the door. i hear knocks.

bitch ian finna die today.
i look at the viewfinder on the door and i see chris wasted.

"lucy, im drunk."

i put down my knife and open the door.

"hi lucy." he awkwardly puts his hand up awkwardly waving.

"hi..."

"i've been alone in my apartment for a good hour and i need someone by my side right now..." he sighs "please stay with me..."

i look into his eyes and nod.

we walked towards his apartment and he grabbed my hand, holding it. we entered his apartment "feel at home..."

his apartment was big. it was really dark even with the light on. all the windows were darkened and you can barely see the outside. i saw guns laying around and money on the table.

i looked over at chris and he removed his hoodie revealing ugly bruises on his left rib.

he grabbed kit kats and sat beside me. we were looking at each other really long and i could feel tension so i quickly looked away.

i stood up and grabbed a pistol "you not tryna kill me right?" i ask him chuckling.

he stood up an inch in front of me and grabbed his pistol and put it back. "i'd never hurt you."

my breathing was getting heavier and heavier. i stopped looking at the floor and i look at him.

i looked at his blue eyes and i fell, i fell hard.

he grabbed my cheek and kissed me. he kissed me passionately.

-

he sat down on the sofa and i was on top of him. i kept on looking at his bruise. "what happened to you?" i ask worried.

"don't worry bout it, alright?" he said but it made me worry more.

i kept quiet and i moved from him. he grabbed my thigh and he tried to put me back on him.

"what's wrong?" he removed the hair from my face.

"chris i'm confused..." i say

"about what?" he grabbed my hand.

"your whole apartment smells like drugs and weed. i see money at every table, guns are everywhere..." i say "... and yet you just let me come here and don't give me an explanation."

"are you scared?" he stands up.

"no. no, i'm not."

"i know you're not scared. i know you arent and thats why you caught my eye." he grabs my cheek.

"im done with the bullshit alright?" he looks me into my eyes "i like you, a lot. i think about you everyday and i like how you're not scared of me. every girl that come to this apartment goes out and doesn't look at me the same way like the way they did. but you you're different, thats why you my special somebody."

i kept quiet and my heart started beating really fast.

"do you feel the same way?" he asks me.

"yes." i nod my head "i do."

he grabs a glock and loads it then puts it beside my head. i felt an adrenaline rush through my body but i wasnt afraid.

"do you still feel the same way?"

i nod "yeah."

he removed the glock and kissed me. "you mine."