lucy, i'm drunk

XVIII

- spilling the tea -
[ lucy's pov ]

i stayed in my room getting flashbacks from when i was at the club with josie. i remembered leaving the club and stayed outside to see what would chris do. i was expecting for him to chase after me and fix stuff but he stayed at the club and went out with a girl with a beautiful, tight, short red dress. it broke my heart because i really felt special around him but i guess he was the classic casanova.

i layed down on my bed as i watched my lights change colours.

i haven't talked to chris for two and a half weeks and i haven't seen him at all. i lowkey missed him but i didn't make that lower my expectation to men. i wasn't going to be the one that's gonna beg for someone to come back. if he wanted to get back with me, he would've found so many reasons to stay but he chose the easy way. even though it does break my heart, it's okay. i'm used to it.

my mom came back home last week just to be sent to another state for her job. i miss her so much. i mostly miss her comforting hugs after having a really bad day. we facetime everyday but it isn't the same.

my phone then started vibrating and i picked it up.

"bitch, open the door. the pizza on my hands are hot as fuck." joanne says.

she came over my place because she's my bestfriend and plus, i haven't really told her any tea about the whole chris situation because i felt as if the whole thing was a bit too much, even with the killing, gang shit. i just didn't want to trigger her but she's my bestfriend. we've been bestfriends for sixteen years.

i put my phone down and quickly ran to the door opening it.

"hey bitchhhh!!!" she says hugging me then giving me the pizza box and damn, it was really hot. "heyyyy!!" i say hugging her.

we quickly sat on my bed and we opened the pizza box. and the smelllll....

"bitch you will never guess who i saw..." she said.

i grab a slice of pizza "who?"

"so bitch, while i was entering your building now, the cute boy with like the hot sleeve tattoo, the one you went on a train with, he entered with me and like i don't know why he looked at me confused or scared but like he was so awkward around me, especially when we entered the elevator together." she sips from her starbucks.

"i mean, i know i look like a ballsack, but oh my god, he didn't have to stare at me like i was the antichrist." she rolled her eyes.

i started laughing "sis..." i sip from a bottle and exhale "he was staring at you because we were together and then like broke up, and shits is really awkward."

joanne then put her pizza and drink down, removed her glasses, put them back, stood up, sat down, put her face near me, put it far away, put her glasses back on and stood up again.

"excuse me dipshit...so you. lucy. had a BOYFRIEND. and you haven't told ME. ME!!! the sun to your galaxy, the fucking godmother of your future children. ME, the person that's also gonna make you rich, of course when i become a billionaire. ME, the stassie to your fucking kylie. ME, the fucking toilet paper to your ass." she puts her hand on her chest.

i started laughing.

she then started fake crying "like oh my gosh. how could you?"

"bitch sit downnn..." i grabbed her arm and pushed her to my bed.

"so why THE FUCK DIDNT YOU TELL ME?????????????? WHAT WAS THE REAAASSSOONNN????" she started clapping her hand and this time she was pissed.

i kept on laughing "oh my god joanne just sit down and i'll tell you everything."

"if you don't tell me everything in details, i will...."

"you will what?" i ask confused.

"wait bitch, let me think..."

i started laughing.

"I WILL FUCKING SHAVE YOUR HEAD AND SELL IT ON EBAY." she says putting her index finger on the air.

"okay bitch just listen." i roll my eyes.

"so like we went on dates, i already told you this shit."

she nodded.

"and so like i went to the basketball court and he was playing there until he got shot because he was a fucking drug dealer." i say grabbing a bite from my pizza.

"drug dealers are sexy..." joanne says and i nod.

"then we kissed and he went to the hospital... bla, bla, bla." i sip from my starbucks cup.

"okay bitch, just spill the motherfucking tea." joanne says annoyed.

i rolled my eyes.

"okay then like we havent talked for a while and he came knocking at my apartment at midnight saying he was drunk and lonely... so he asked me to come to his apartment-..."

"you fucking went did you?" joanne asked licking her lips.

shit, she's gonna kill me.

"y- , y- , yeah...."

she looks at me disappointed "you could've gotten kidnapped and fucking raped, but go on..."

"so like we make out, i slept over. da, da, da. then like i realized he in the mob and he into gang shit and like a lot of people are scared of him and, it's just fucking confusing."

"men in gangs are fucking sexy. like oh my god, just take me..." she says slowly moaning making me hit her with a pillow.

"okay bitch, this story gets even darker and i want you to fucking keep this secret to the grave. on some pretty little liars theme song, type shit. like don't fucking tell this to anybody." i look her in the eyes.

she looks at me amused nodding her head.

"so like he popped somebody in front of me because the guy like betrayed chris' and tyson's mob and the whole gang was under threat and they made an easy way out."

"so this whole shit is like 21 savage, red opps thingy?" she looks at me surprised.

i nodded.

"you fucking lucky bitchhh!!!" she pushes my shoulder and i looked at her shook.

"how isn't that scary for you?" i look at her confused.

"my whole family literally a mafia, i've seen my dad peel off a mans skin."

i started chocking from the pizza.