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CHAPTER 1

Hi, My Name is Madison Scarlett, With Two T's. So you probably know my story already. My father passed when I was 8  my mother passed when I was 25. I was a drug-addict. Let's go back to 11th grade when I was 16. Life was not so nice. I and this girl were crushing and Yes I'm opening bisexual. I Think But anyways. In the 10th it was obvious we both liked each other but I didn't imagine us being together. But it happened. So we were just flirting with each other. By 11th grade, we were dating...A little bit. But there was a boy I was friends with and that boy was her ex-boyfriend I hated him...He didn't know that we were together so we had to tell him so we came up with a plan to tell him...Well, he didn't take it as well as I thought he wouldn't. He was pissed off. He was like What the hell!? 12th grade we were officially dating! Wow! it was the best not so good year I mean I was happy dating with the girl I loved ever since so I was! But drugs. I did Drugs in 10th, 11th, 12th, And 9th, I was a target to drug abuse. College Was worse. Age 18. First Year of College. "John Jay criminal justice!? Fuck! yeah" I was unbelievably happy! I worked so hard for this!

'No you didn't you liar you didn't work hard you were just lucky' said the voice inside my head. "Bethany! Bethany! My mail came!" I said running back inside with the mail in hand. "From John Jay?" said My older sister. "Yes! YES! it did do I open it?" I said nervously and my hands shaking. My sister opened the mail "Madison Scarlett you been accepted to John Jay! Oh my god, Madison you made it in!!" said my sister hugging me, She was happy for me. Madison: 'Yay! more work and less sleep...Fewer DRUGS!' Said the voice inside my head. "Oh my god! Tell Mom!" I told my sister. Madison: 'Wow! all she's going to say is "how cute dear" or "Wow! you did" and that's it!' said the voice. "She said that she's happy for you!" said My sister... "Wow...That's nice to hear" I said walking to my room...Madison: 'see what I told you! Your own mother!' said the voice. "Leave me alone for one minute!" I said mad and sad... "Ugh..!" fuck...why doesn't she care... Madison: 'Come on...College is just around the corner...' said my voice. "oh shit!" I said checking the message I got from "Gianna?"

2 months later...

"Madison remember just be careful okay?" said My sister and my mother driving the car "Bye sweetie I'll see you later..." said My mother. Madison: 'Mother you know better!' said my voice. "I'm so happy for you Madison, I really am, remember no skipping this time," said Danielle "Yeah I know," I said smiling while she squeezing my cheeks. "Haha...Stop I don't have fat anymore" I said laughing while  Danielle has a disappointing face... Madison: 'Ooh Look what you did now Madison! You made her remember' said the voice "Madison what you did to your body was not good...Or healthy!" said  Danielle holds my hands "But I hated myself," I said looking down "But I didn't hate you!"  Danielle keeps holding my hand while I kept looking down...I hate when I have to look at people in the eyes. "Madison...I love you...Remember that!" said Danielle kissing me. I crack a smile... "And you know I love you too..." I said smiling. "Yeah I know, and you know I love you too," I said hugging and kissing her. Madison: 'Awww How cute you two are! But you know what's not cute? not smoking weed!' it's happening! my blood,  I need Weed! My hands shaking my legs, stomach moving like a wild sea! "Madison are you okay?" said Danielle noticing my shaken body "Y-Yes...I-I really have to go, I need to call someone," I said walking away while my hand is flipping from her's. "Madison!" said Danielle grabbed my wrist fast and tight. "Ouch?" I said looking at my wrist, Madison: 'uh-oh she knows! she knows!!' said the voice growing louder and louder.

"Shut Up!" I said muttering to myself. "What? Madison!" said Danielle While I try to set myself free "MADISON! I know what you're going to do! And it's not going to help you all the way!" said  Danielle loud and worried, Why is she in my way! why are people in my way! "I'll call you later or text you! bye!" I said freeing myself from her wrist grabbing whatever! "Madison! don't do this!" said Danielle yelling while I run. Madison: ' Running, breath taking, Small amounts of breathing! But the really good feeling of getting high' my breath and the wind blowing in my face I can almost feel like passing out. "Hello? hello?" said Gianna on my phone "Ye-s Yes Hello? Gianna, can you hear me?" I said covering one hear from a big loud noise. "yes I can hear you where are you?" said Gianna loud to I can hear "Ohh In my college! Listen I'm having trouble sleeping! can you help with that?" I said while I catch my breath from that run. "Y-es I cou-uld help with that J-just meet me in you know the place!" said Gianna. Walking to the place feels nice having a moment of walking

"Hey! Madison my friend! best friend!" said Gianna hugging me. "I wanna go bigger on this one," I said looking up at her. "Bigger? Like Heroin, cocaine?" said Gianna. " Yes like Heroin and the others!" I said rushed. "Are you sure! I mean your my friend I don't want you to end up like those? in the streets all happy and dying" said Gianna "Don't worry about me As I told you... Don't worry about me when I was high from weed!"  I was telling some prove I could take care of myself.  "Mmm...Fine! But you have to stay with me because this is your first time!" said Gianna taking me to her house. "Where's your house it's Kinda cold..." I said worriedly I would die from freezing. "Haha! Calm down, little bro!" said Gianna While we walk down the stairs, Madison: 'uhh cold, Dying, shaking...passing out...' my body feeling weak to stay up... "Madison get up were here!" said Gianna shaking me. "Oh really," I said getting up, walking up the stairs of the train is awful my legs hurt... And There long ass fuck! walking back to her house was long and we have to pass my street. "So How's Danielle and you?" said Gianna. "Oh it's good but she doesn't like me doing these kinds of stuff," I said looking down at my feet. It's always my feet I look at. "Well she doesn't understand," said Gianna "I guess your right?" I didn't feel it was right but she knew every problem from me. "Finally warm and not cold!" I took off my coat and Gianna just grabbed my arm "What are you doing??" I said while she rolled up my sleeve and told me "You always have to roll up her sleeve" said Gianna grabbing the paper with alcohol and cleaning my where shes going to put it. "I'm cleaning your veins it might hurt a little bit but trust me the feeling of being high is good!" said Gianna preparing the stuff. "I'm a little scared you know!" I said shaking a little bit. "I know I was too!" she said looking at me. "Okay, you always Have to flick the needle because of bubbles it won't work," said Gianna "Wait! is the Needle new??"  good thing I asked because I don't want HIV! "You saw me open a new packet come on!" she said pointing at the open packet. "Okay just making sure..." I said breathing heavily, She grabbed a rubber band and wrapped it around the spot she was going to but that big as needle!!  "ready? Let's go!" she was going slowly "Oh my god, oh my god!" I muttered.  "Ah! Haha!" I felt that shit! "Ah! hahaha! Ohhh Hahaha" I was laughing and felt relaxed but breathing fast like I was going to pass out. "That's a Heroin! Happy?" said Gianna While I fall back and laugh...

Big mistake in my life.