"Not our fault Lukes fat." (UNEDITED)

*Chapter 7* Kissing, Mario Kart And Green Hair

LUKES POV

Waking up in the morning was easier than I had thought it would be I had not one single bad dream, maybe the boys are a good luck charm? I pushed the covers of the blankets back and stretched, hearing the familiar pop of my bones and back.
I stand up and look down at the boys who are all still asleep.

They're beautiful

Wait what? no I'm not aloud to say that, they deserve better than me.
I sigh and turn around to go to the bathroom I look in the mirror and sigh, yes my skin is bad and my hair is messy but I haven't eaten in a while and after lifting up my shirt I'm surprised when the amount of hate that comes down isn't as much as I had expected.
"I guess I can have breakfast then.." I mumble softly in my morning voice, I shut the bathroom door trying my best to lower the amount of sound I make when there are sound sleeping boys in this bus as well.

I make myself a small bowl of cheerios and some skim milk, trying to tip toe over to the little table we have which is connected to the wall, I sit down and mumble some quiet lyrics to myself.

"Cause i'm in too deep and i'm trying to keep.." I pick up the spoon and dive it into the sugary breakfast, bringing the spoon up I bring it to my mouth, I take a breath and think about how proud the boys will be when they find out I had breakfast!

"You can do it Luke" I repeat to myself, I push the spoon into my awaiting mouth and in the horrible delight the sweetness of the cereal brings to my tastebuds, its so good and I feel so guilty.
I place the spoon into the bowl and focus on the small amount i have in my mouth, I try to chew it so it will go down easier but I find I have trouble feeling comfortable swallowing the carb filled food.
'The boys will be so proud, so proud' I have to do this, I need to make the boys proud, I need to make the boys pro- "Lukey?" I turn to see Ashton standing there looking at me with the biggest smile on his face, the food is still in my mouth and its only a small bit, but looking at Ashton now I allow the food to go down to my stomach with ease, I bring a hand up to wipe away the few small tears from my cheeks.
I look to Ashton who is smiling at me in his pyjamas with morning hair.

"I'm so proud of you Lukey" Ashton says wrapping his arms around my waist and stuffing his face into my chest, and I would be lying if I said I didn't feel butterflies, I'd also be lying if I didn't feel the guilt weigh down onto my shoulders from them.

"Guys Luke had some breakfast today.." Ashton says proudly as the others have some toast and coffee at the breakfast table, Ashton is sitting on the couch with Luke opposite him, a blush clear on the blondes cheeks at the praise he is getting.

"Really? Lukey i'm so proud!" Mikey says smiling with his teeth and eyes sparkling
"What did you have Luke?" Calum says with soft eyes

Luke shifts uncomfortably but says quite proudly "I um I couldn't finish my cereal so I just had an orange and a small cup of milk.." He wasn't over the moon proud of himself but with the way the boys were smiling like he had won the lottery, he very well could've felt a bit better.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Michael move yo ass outta the way Cash money is coming through!" Calum calls out as he moves forward with his wii controller, Luke watches on with a smile from the couch, he has Michael between his legs and Luke is absentmindedly running his fingers through the white tuffs of hair.
"As if we all know that my yoshi will win! Your princess peach can't catch up to me!" Michael says while moving his body as if it would speed up his car on the television.
Ashton watches on from the other side of the room, he watches how each of the boy has their own minds concentrating on different things, Calum on beating Michael, Michael on beating Calum and Luke on playing with Michaels hair.