"Not our fault Lukes fat." (UNEDITED)

*Chapter 6* Mr.Clifford you seem to be extra cuddly tonight?

The tension in the room was obvious the next morning, no one on the bus had gotten any sleep through the night and the other boys didn't get to go to sleep until late after promising Greg that if anything bad happened they would call him straight away.

Michael, Ashton and Calum are all in the kitchen/living/dinning room area, and its noticeable on each of their faces how much hurt they are feeling.

"I...I don't know what we are meant to do.." Ashton says, breaking the chilling silence in the early morning of 8am on their 1st traveling day out of 3.
Michael runs a hand through his newly coloured white hair, his eyes have dark bags under them showing off his lack of sleep,

Calum looks up from his cup of milky coffee to look at his best friends, he's so confused at what happened last night, they didn't mean to hurt Lukes feelings hell they were trying to help him!
Shaking his head Cal turns around when Michael starts to get upset and huffy, Michaels shoulders sag even more when Ashton goes on about how 'what if Luke never forgives us' or 'ah what if he quits the band!'
"Oh shut up Ash can't you see you're winding Mikey up!" Calum finally snaps at Ash, regretting it a second later when the eldest lad turns to look at him a bit of a pout on his lips but he just nods his head.

"I'm sorry Ash i didn't mean to snap, i just... i don't want lukey to hate us" Calum sniffles a bit while still holding Mikey in his arms, Ashton nods his head understandingly at Calum.
"I'm sorry i didn't think of what i was saying, i'm sure he doesn't hate us, h-he was just upset at the news of therapy~" "So we are still going through with the therapy thing?" Mikey pipes up from Calums shoulder.
Ashton looks at the other two tired boys with uneasiness in his hazel eyes, he just shakes his head with an 'i don't know' sort of shoulder shrug.
"I mean, we do don't we?" Ashton says quietly, still aware of the fact that a very annoyed and upset Luke is a door away from their conversation.

"No, we can't we, we need to sort of whats going on with him and just, its all happened so quickly." Calum says leaning his chin on Mikeys head, Ashton and Michael give a silent nod at Calums words.
"We should probably talk to lukes pare-"
"Talk to whose parents?" All the boys turn to look at Luke who is standing in the doorway to the bedrooms, he is still in Ashtons clothes and his hair is messy, a sign he didn't get much sleep either the boys are guessing.

"Lukey" Michael says, pushing out slightly from Calums arms to reach out to Luke, Calum goes to pull him back but Mikey just slides out of his grasp, he walks up to Luke and just stares at him for a second, the height difference obvious, blue against green in eyes and blonde against white in hair.
"Oh Lukey i'm so sorry, i didn't know you were listening and i don't want you to go away i promise!" Michael says pushing his face into Lukes chest and howling out loud cries that Australia could probably hear.

LUKES POV

I have a crying Michael Clifford in my arms, i don't know how i'm meant to react.

I cautiously bring an arm around Michaels shaking figure

You made him cry, well done fuck up

"They wont stop, please make them stop Mikey" I say my voice cracking half way through
Michael pulls back from my chest and looks me in the eyes
"Who? what wont stop baby?" Michaels eyes are full of concern but its too much i can feel all the hatred coming down again, but i'm so tired.

"The voices in my head, they, they keep telling me how i'm ugly and fat and a fuck up and its a lot to hear and i can't get to sleep because all i can hear are the voices!"
The boys all stare at me with worry, i just shake my head and reach my arms out to Michael who has since moved away from me.
"Can i have a cuddle?" I ask him, but then i look to the other boys too and they all nod their heads before racing into me, to make a tight and comfortable embrace.
They all cuddle close to me and my knees almost give out from the sleepiness catching up to me, but before i can drop to the floor Ashton reaches out and holds me up, which i didn't like and let out a whine of protest at.
"Hey, how about we go to bed? come on we can drag the mattresses and bedding onto the floor and make a big bed in the back room and maybe watch a movie?" Ashton says nodding towards the other boys, they all let out little squeals before running into the bedrooms and pulling apart the beds, Ashton stays with me, holding his big muscly arms around my shoulders, i feel a bit better but still so tired.

I'm about to fall asleep standing up with Ashton half holding me when he kisses the side of my cheek, i turn to look at him in surprise, but he just smiles at me, dimples and all.
"What was that?" I ask him, my voice sounding higher than normal, i give a cough and try to make the blush on my cheeks go away, but i'm almost positive its permanently stuck there.
"I think you're beautiful Luke, i really do." Ashton says his voice full of what i can only describe as love.
Ashton reaches a hand and places it against my burning cheek, his cold hand feels really nice against it but its when he starts to lean it that i find myself lost, i don't know if i should lean in to, but without realising it i was already leaning in to kiss Ashtons lips, our lips are so close to touching and i can feel his newly minty fresh breath hitting my face, i can't believe this is happening and i'm so ready and our lips are about to touc-

"Hey guys we g-oh" Ashton and i look up to the door where Michael is standing with a sly smirk on his face but in his eyes i can see hints of jealously

He probably likes Ashton, yeah thats it

I look back to Ashton and spring back from him, my cheeks flaming even more, i look to the ground as i try to catch my breath.
Looking back to Michael at the door i just nod my head at nothing and push past Ashton towards the bedroom door to the back living room.
The boys talk behind me but i'm just guessing they are talking about me which is embarrassing enough.

"Hey Lukey jump on in." Calum says with a gigantic smile on his face as he lays on a homemade mound of blankets, he is in a certain sexual pose and i can't help but let out a small giggle and a toothy smile.
I crawl into the blanket palace and smile as Calum cuddles me up into his shoulder and chest, i breathe a sigh of relief at how normal it feels, Ashton and Michael walk in a minute later and i notice how both of their clothes are a bit more askew than before and their cheeks are a tinted pink.

"Come on guys 21 jump street is about to start." They both nod and make a move to get into the bed, Ash goes to Calums side while Michael comes beside me, he gets comfortable and i just stare at him with a bit of a pained expression on my face, Michael finally looks up and meets my cold gaze, his smile wipes off his face and is replaced with one of guilt but then he snuggles up to me and kisses my neck which i shiver at, i smile then the original jealousy gone and replaced by my heart fluttering at how cuddly Michael is tonight.

I sigh and dig deep into the bed rolling over to my stomach closing my eyes, i feel Michael start to play with my hair and Calum starts to rub my back comfortingly, i can hear the boys start to mumble quiet conversations about music and movies before i'm out like a light.