Meant to Be... l.h.

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After my confrontation with Luke I haven't left my apartment in three days. Liam came everyday and spent time with me. He knew I was upset that Luke said this things to me and he completely understood how I was so upset. Today was day four of isolation and Liam couldn't come today. He had an appointment to get his throat checked out because it has been hurting him lately. I was upset but I'll manage to take care of myself. Today was the worst of all four days. Being alone really made me realize just how upset I was. I know Ashton is worried about me. He checked in many times the last few days. He doesn't want me to go back to a bad place. It makes me upset to know that I'm making Ashton worried about me which just makes me cry. That's all I've done the last 4 Days. Cry and cry and cry. Crying is like my natural pain reliever. It helps the pain but not permanently. I lay on my bed and sob into my pillow for hours before My front door swing open. I look up from my crying spot to see a pissed off luke.

"GOD DAMIT ROSE CANT YOU SEE THAT IM SORRY!" He yells.

"Get out Luke." I say in between sobs.

"No! I'm not leaving when all I've done for the last four days is listen to you sob! Do you have any idea how badly I wanted to come over here and hug you until you felt better! But no! Every time you were upset The perfect boyfriend Liam swoops in and saves the day! It's not fair!"

"It's not fair? Luke don't you see what you're doing to me? You're messing me up! I'm broken! You don't know how it feels to be degraded by one of the only people you trust and care about in the world. It's not fair that I have to feel guilty when I didn't do anything. It's not fair that I have to keep questioning myself, 'why did Luke do that to me?' 'Why am I not good enough?' It's not fair that I had to stabbed in the back by my own boyfriend and it's not fair that I have to continue to watch my ex boyfriend continue to lead a girl on just to get back at me."

"You have no idea why I'm dating Leah! And you can't even talk! Your the one whoring around with Liam." My heart stops as those words passed his lips. He immediately notices he fucked up.
"Rose I didn't mean it like-"

"Stop Luke. Your right. I'm nothing but a worthless whore who can't get over the fact that I wasn't good enough for you. So how about you do yourself a favor and leave my apartment. I won't come by you and you won't come by me." I say in a monotone voice.

"No rose don't do this I'm sorry."

"So am I. I'm sorry I wasted your time. Please just leave." With that he walks out mumbling another 'I'm sorry' On the way out. As he closed the door I find myself wanting to cry. Surprisingly I can't find any tears left. Instead I lay in my bed and eventually fall asleep to nothing but lost thoughts.

1 week later

I've done really good at avoiding Luke. I still go to Ashton's whenever 5SOS is there but I don't even talk or look at Luke. I didn't tell anyone about the conversation Luke and I had last week because I don't want anyone especially Ashton to worry about me. The only way anyone knows is if Luke told them. Liam came over later hat night after Luke left. I was asleep and didn't notice him come in but in the morning I woke up next to him so apparently he came. Liam and I are doing good but I haven't seen him a lot the last few days because one direction is working hard trying to out their forth album. I still see him at night though. Tonight is Pizza night and it's at Ashton's. However I have about eight more hours to spare before I need to go. So I drag myself out of bed and get dressed before walking over to Ashton's where the boys are doing stuff. Probably watching Netflix. I walk in and see that I'm correct they are all sitting on the couch watching Netflix. Everyone except Luke says I to me as I join them.

"What's up Skylar?" Ashton asks.

"Nothing. Oh! I came for a reason. Calum, Harry and I are going to the mall in an hour if you want to come. And Michael, you are invited to play video games with me and Liam before Pizza night."

"Okay I'll come." Calum says.

"I would love to play video games with you guys." Michael says.

"Hey! How come I'm not invited to anything!" Ashton asks.

"You my friend need to stay here and plan Pizza night."

"But that's so much work and you're stealing all my helpers." He whines.

"I'll have Liam come over to help you while I'm at the mall, once I get back Calum and Harry can help. Okay?"

"Fine."

"Okay great! Calum go get your ass ready, I've gotta go make a call I'll see you guys later." I say standing up.

"Who do you need to call?" Ashton asks.

"I'm looking for a job. I need money."

"No you don't! You have us!"

"Whatever Ash."

"No seriously! You could help us out when we go on tour tomorrow."

"As much as I would love to be stuck in a bus with you guys, I can't leave the other guys."

"They are coming with us."

"Really?"

"Yeah we are going on tour together."

"Oh! They never said anything about it."

"They just found out last night."

"Oh! Cool. Either way I still need to go back to my apartment. I have to call Harry to make sure he is awake."

"Alright go have fun." I walk back to my apartment and text Harry. He texts me back immediately so I know he's awake. To the mall we go!