Monsta

FOURTEEN

santana's point of view

It feels like I'm ten and getting scolded by my parents. I sit on the bed while all seven boys glare at me.

Hyungwon: You had us worried while you were playing dora the explorer with some boy.
Shownu: What If he tried to do something to you?

All of their eyes widen.

Minhyuk: Oh my God, did he touch you?

I roll my eyes before shaking my head.

Shownu: We thought you went back to the hotel to rest after dinner. When Kihyun came to check on you he said you weren't in the room.
Jooheon: We almost called the police!
Changkyun: Then I said that would be a bit much so we waited.
Jooheon: Anything could've happened to you!

They continue to yell and panic. Part of me is flattered that they were concerned, the rest of me not so much.

Wonho: I think she gets the point guys. It's late we should get some sleep and discuss this in the morning.

They all leave and I sigh. I look over at Kihyun and he's already staring at me.

Kihyun: You had us really scared you know?
Me: I'm sorry, I didn't think you guys would care that much.

He raises an eyebrow.

Kihyun: Why?
Me: I just didn't.

Deciding to be done with the subject I go into the bathroom and run a hot bath. Once my body touches the water every stressful thought is gone.

The bathroom door opens and I snap my neck towards Kihyun. He begins to undress, a shade of pink is on his cheeks as he stands there naked.

Kihyun: Can I join you?

I scoot up so he can get in behind me. Once he's comfortable he pulls me so that my back is against his chest.

The silence between us is comfortable. The smell of cream and strawberries fill the bathroom making me smile.

I don't care what anyone has to say, aromatherapy works.

Kihyun: Sex to me is much more than lust.

I close my eyes and continue to listen.

Kihyun: I want the person to feel safe and cherished. I don't want anyone doing anything because they feel as though they have to, or because it's their job.

Ahhh, I glance back at him and he smiles.

Kihyun: The reason I rejected your offer earlier is because I don't want you to feel like some used doll, the other boys don't want you to feel like that either. Do you?

Do I?

Me: Sometimes I think about the future. My life has been rocky and the only way out was to be a sex slave.
Kihyun: Don't use that word.
Me: A toy?
Kihyun: Santana.

I sigh.

Me: My way out was to be a pleaser for seven strangers. Who would want to marry someone knowing this?

Kihyun holds my hand, placing a gentle kiss to my shoulder.

Kihyun: You never know.
Me: I'll be judged my whole life if someone finds this out.

He doesn't say anything, he just rubs my shoulders gently. I turn around to face him and he smiles, I place my lips gently against his. He hesitates for a moment but then he kisses me back.

I pull away and he groans.

Kihyun: I have a problem.

My eyes widen as I feel his problem stabbing me.

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goodmorning folks.