Monsta

FOUR

santana's point of view

Lunch is awkward.

Ten minutes has passed and no-one has said anything. I take a sip of water before continuing to eat the ramen Shownu made.

Jooheon: Leroy said you didn't have family. What did he mean by that?

I sit my fork down and sigh.

Me: When I was sixteen a bunch of guys broke into my house in the middle of the night and killed my parents.

Everyone paused their actions.

Me: I was sent to live with my grandfather but he was a drunk who barely helped me. Then once I turned eighteen he kicked me out.
Kihyun: So where'd you go after?

Wonho shoots him a non-subtle glare.

Me: I didn't have anywhere to go so I just took all the money I saved and stayed in cheap motel rooms, then when my money ran dry it was homeless shelters.

I start to push my food around.

Shownu: You don't have to talk about this anymore if you don't want to.

I shrug.

Me: We have to get to know each other right? Especially with this arrangement.

They all nod.

After lunch I went to my room to unpack, it wasn't much so I was done within' ten to fifteen minutes. I sat down on the bed and sighed.

Maybe I'll just rest for a few minutes.

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jooheon's point of view

I glance over at Changkyun and smile.

Me: She's upstairs sleeping.

He nods, uninterested.

Me: How do you feel about this whole thing?

He rinses his last dish and sighs.

Changkyun: I don't know. At the time it sounded like an interesting idea but now I'm not sure.

Hyungwon enters nodding his head.

Hyungwon: I agree.
Me: Huh?
Hyungwon: She's broken.
Me: You think so?
Changkyun: She witnessed her own parents' murder and then lived on the streets. Wouldn't you be?

I scratch my head.

Me: So let's help her. If she's going to be here to please us we should also help her. Get her a therapist or something.
Hyungwon: A therapist?
Me: I don't see you coming up with any ideas.

He shrugs.

Hyungwon: She seems like a sweet girl but is she really right for this job?

We all look at each other.

Hyungwon: It may seem simple now but later down the road it can get crucial.
Changkyun: After all she's been through it'll feel like we're taking advantage of her vulnerability.

I nod my head.

Changkyun: Maybe we should send her home.
Hyungwon: She doesn't have a home remember.

santana's point of view

I make my way back upstairs before they can see me eavesdropping. Once I'm in my room I groan loudly.

They think I'm this fragile thing that can't handle this job. I mean yes this is a lot, but I'll manage. I can't go back to my old life. Not yet, not until I make enough money here to change my life.

And I'll prove it, tonight.

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Once midnight hits I take a long shower to calm down my nerves. I didn't think I'd be doing this so soon but again, desperate times.

Once I'm completely dried off I apply shea and vanilla butter to my skin. When Leroy gave me money to go shopping he suggested I get lingerie.

This isn't my first time having sex but it's only be the second time. And it's with a famous idol, the stubborn Changkyun to be specific.

I creep out my room and head to the familiar door. It's so dark in his room I'm afraid I'll fall. My hands begin to sweat, oh great, how sexy.

My hands feel around until it touches something soft, his bed.

Well, it's too late now.

I climb on top of him and smile. Through the darkness I can make out his facial features, he's cute when he's not running his mouth.

I pull the covers off of him, he only has on boxers which makes my job a whole lot easier. I kiss on his jaw making my way down to his neck, sucking and biting lightly.

He groans but doesn't do much else.

I grind on him slowly. He's a heavy sleeper, then it hits me, he's sleep.

I pause my actions and sigh.

What if he doesn't want this?

What if he thinks it's too soon?

Maybe I'm overthinking it.

Or maybe not.

I go to climb off him but I let out a small yelp as his hands hold me in place. He flips us around so he's on the top and I'm on the bottom.

He raises an eyebrow as he stares down at me.

Changkyun: You wanna' play?

Oh shit.

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if she doesn't want to play i volunteer as tribute.