Symptoms Of Love

chapter 2- farewell

Each one of us possesses a thread known as destiny. These threads meet, intervene and create bonds. These bonds either become stronger with time or entangle and eventually break.

I am a thread which runs parallel to all the threads, close enough but never meet. Leaving everyone is Surely sad but not sad enough for me to give up everything and stay. Give up my family.

"Yo Ness! today is about you, you can't afford to space out" Darren remarked

Everyone had planned out a schedule for today, I highly doubt if they ever did something like this for their exams. I won't be surprised if Cindy, Leila and Ryan made a schedule before exams, they were top scores as for the rest, Adam and I were average, Ashley and Darren were bottom dwellers. So all of them to actually put equal amount of brain cells and come up with something like this was actually something. "Sorry Sorry, I was actually surprised and was thinking how did you actually keep up with the rest in contributing ideas." I said pointing out at Darren. Everyone was laughing.

We were all at the moment at Jones karaoke/ bowling place. We planned to stay here till 8 o'clock, so we have still got an hour, after which we would head to a beach shack for dinner, bonfire and long talks until midnight. I know that I had told them that today will be my last day, but I didn't think they will take it literally. " So if today is your last day, then you can stay with us till midnight. Let's utilize every minute!" That's what Leila said. Well specification is necessary for this set of people, I should have said working hours instead of a day.

After the karaoke, we headed to the beach shack named Blue. Blue was one of the shacks along the coast line, having a 'to rent bonfire area' which we had rented till midnight. The time passed like the sand slipping from a fist. We all surrounded the bonfire, I was staring at their glowing orange faces as one topic leads to another sharing happy old memories. I made a mental note not to ever forget these people even though I can not keep in touch with them. Then I noticed something, before I could put two plus two together it was too late. Every one had made some excuse and left, every one expect Adam. He was sitting beside me, looking right through me. I knew what was coming, I didn't want to hear it. I hated that I felt that way, but ... but he deserves it, he understood me just by the limited crap I shared among them. He deserves to speak his mind, I know that he must have gathered a lot of courage to do this and I must respect him.

"The look on your face tells me that you know what I am gonna tell you. When the others suggested me to do this, I didn't deny. I don't want to have any regrets, I think it's time for me to be a man and face it. Anyways what have I got to lose, the result will be the same any which ways." Adam spoke so confidently, it was unlike him.

When he said the result will be same any Which ways, he understood I will break ties with them. It hurts me to know he knows me, it feels like my Armour had been stripped. I can't ... I can't attach myself to these people any more, I have to leave, forget them, move on and then repeat the procedure, it's like a chemical reaction.

" Amnesty Lee, I love you from the day I didn't even know what love was. Thank you for letting me experience these feelings. I hope you experience them too." He declared, he had a proud smile and wet eye lashes.

I stepped in front and hugged him. " Adam Dyer, I am honored. I hope next time when you fall in love, you fall in love with someone who can retain feelings."

The only thing I could think of right now was that, how lucky Adam was to know what love is and at the same time how unlucky he was that the person was me. As for me it is a taboo. To explain it more clearly, it's like a love between a mortal and an immortal. A mortal whose feelings constantly change with time and has a limited life span, an immortal who falls in love rarely but when it does it's unconditional, almost impossible to let go. When both of them fall in love, the mortal in the future can have a change of heart or can die, where does that leave the immortal. An everlasting torture. I am in the immortal category.

I finally let Adam go ( ps: we were hugging)." Adam, I am just curious, what can you possibly like about me. I am average in every way possible." I regretted as soon as I said it.

"Hmmm... I wasn't expecting you to ask something like this. I can't point it out, this is too difficult for me. How about I shift this load, ask this question to the next person that likes you, maybe he can give you a better answer." He answers with gleaming eyes.

"Next person... huh." I thought.

Just then we heard giggles, I looked in the direction they were coming from. There was a guy surrounded by girls, living his own little harem. I become red, Adam started whispering " Amnesty no no no." I took one of the big bugs which were near the fire and threw right at them. The girls started screaming. They all dispersed, all confused. There is one thing those people that know me and don't know me, are very certain of... I ABSOLUTELY DESPISE PLAYBOYS.

Everything went well, I got parting gifts and in return I gave each one a similar key-chain. After I went home, mom asked me how my day was, I told her my whole day events except for the Adam and the Playboy part. I headed straight to Leroy's room,(speaking on universal terms) Leroy will be join 8th grade and I 11th. A new step in both of our lives. He told me about his eventful day with his friends and told him mine. I was glad,we are leaving this place on good terms.

Two days from now, we will again start from square one.