Symptoms Of Love

chapter 29- Decision.

“I cannot let you burn me up, nor can I resist you. No mere human can stand in a fire and not be consumed.”

Possession by A.S. Byatt

It would be an understatement if I said my head was going to burst. This would be the first time that I have missed practices. I missed it for a good cause, to clear my head.

So here I am, lying on the bed with a headache.

Till now I have figured a few things, there was no denying I did, I do feel something for her and she I am sure feels the same. And I am damn sure she is just as confused as I am, maybe even more. 

Kol  was right about a lot of things, Amnesty was different, different from all of us, he told me I treated her differently and that's because she deserves it. He is right about her making me do thinks I have Never done, he  was damn right about her being dangerous.

But.

Was all this worth it? I have already come so far, slowing down is not an option for me. I can not afford my mind being occupied by her. I know it might be a good option to retreat to my old ways, before it's too late.

Or maybe it is already too late.

So now what do I do, go back to the way I was before meeting her or find out what is this feeling that is haunting me. But She has a lot on her plate and so have I. 

So I decide, it would be better to maintain a safe distance, eventually we will grow out of each other. She will have no distractions, no complicated life, no confusions. I will have all my focus channelled on one aim.

I get out of the room to get some fresh air. I see her get out of the lift. 

Maybe I can start with the whole distance thing after a week, exams will be over by then and results will be out. As for basketball, that as it is she can not play for a while.

I keep my eyes on her until she stops in front of me.

"Is there anything I can help you with?" I ask.

"I have  completed all the drawings." She announces handing out my book.

"I thought I told you to do it under my supervision." I take the book from her and start flipping the pages, sure enough she had done a good job.

"Yeah right, and how did it turn out for us?" 

"You tell me?"

"Disastrous." She replied.

"Was it?" I raised my eyebrows.

She was quite. I knew what we had was toxic, for both of us.

I break the silence, " This would do, good job. I had already completed all the writing work yesterday."

"I need help in physics." She says.

"Meet me in the library in exactly one hour."

"Okay."

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"So do you get it, that's how you calculate the magnetic flux." I say keeping the pen down. We had been studying for about two hours. She had been keeping up, we didn't have any random talk. 

She would stiffen when we touch each other even the slightest, and the same goes for me. Mostly we would be looking down on our books, but if we make eye contact we will look away immediately then again look at each other for a bit longer time and then look away again.

"Yep got it!" She said.

"I think we should call it a day now." I tell her.

"Yes."

We get out of the library, she takes some other way which isn't for the dorm.

"Where are you going? dorm is this way." I point out.

"I am meeting Alan for dinner." She explains.

"Alan? Didn't you call him senpai or something?"

"I did, he told me to lose the formalities since we were friends now."

How are these two getting close?

"How do you guys even know each other?" I couldn't help but ask.

"Well he is the first person I met when I joined."

I knew I was asking her a lot of questions, but what was more surprising was that she was answering them.

"Date?" I ask, curiosity getting the better of me.

"No," she laughs awkwardly, " just catching up...hmm.. I gotta go I am getting late."

I nod.

And then she walks away, which has been doing a lot lately.

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I know this one is short but I knew this had to be a chapter, and I didn't want to mess it up by dragging it. Another chapter would be uploaded soon❤️❤️❤️.

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