Within The Heart (Short Story)

Within The Heart 15

Sorry it's short. don't have any wifi at home anymore so I'm writing this in Mcdonals. Ha. Well, hope you like it. Don't forget to vote, comment and fan. <3

A few months went by and I was starting to get big. Lilly has been going all out buying baby stuff without even knowing if it's a boy or a girl.

Drew on the other hand didn't want to let it go. And I guess I couldn't blame him. We went to the cops and got a DNA test. They took other test too. But they said they couldn't  brove the baby was Johns yet. I was in there for what felt like years. "We'll call you tomorrow with what we find."

I nooded and walked out. Drew held the door open for me then took hold of my hand. This all felt weird... But I liked that he really did care. I didn't want to lose that. But what I did want to loose was all memorey of John is it was possible. I didn't want Drew to keep bring him up, even if he thought it was right to get 'pay back' and send his ass to jail. I didn't want to go through this. I was just a kid. This was all to much.

I hated this, I hated the fact that I knew I wasn't going to be able to ever forget what happen. Or forget his face.... or words. I had to live with the fact that this was apart of my life. But it was hard...

And I thank Lilly and Drew that I didn't have to do it alone. I sigh wants we got into the car and rolled down the window. "what are you doing? It's cold as hell and you have the window open?" Drea said amused.

I rolled my eyes and tried not to smile. "Hush, I'm hot." He turned up the radio just a little bit and stopped at McDonals.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked.

I looked at him and smiled. "I... uh... I don't want McDonals."

His face went flat and he sigh. "You and your gravings. Your lucky I'm a nice guy." He started to drive out of McDonals parking lot and stopped at a red light.

"What do you want?" He asked.

"Chilis." I said excited as the thought just hit me. "No, Apple Bees... no, Chilis."

He laughed and shook his head. "Just make up your mind already."

I sigh and smiled. "Fine, Chilis. Now get a move on. I'm hungry."

He chuckled and licked his lips. "Your so bossy."

We had little conversations here and there, but it looked like Drew was lost in his thoughts. And I didn't blame him.. I was lost in mines. And with all of this going on, I couldn't help and think how I wouldn't had meet him if I wouldn't had lost my parents. Maybe I wouldn't had ever meet such a great guy.

But I think either way, if we were meant for each other, we would had found our way. Right? Maybe this was a reason. I looked out the window and started thinking about my mom. How excited she would be to know she was going to be a granma. (I mean, when I was old enough) But now, my kids will never get to meet her.. or my dad and brothers.

I left like crying right there and then, and I did. I didn't hold back. I cried out. I sobbed all over my clothes. Drew gave me a worried look and stopped the car at a empty street.

"What's wrong?" He asked nervous of not sure what to say.

"My parents..." I wasn't sure that he heard me through my sobbs. He gave me a confused look and I shook my head. He didn't hear me. But I don't know how I could talk through this break down.

"Are you just emotional because you know... your---"

"Noo!" I shouted out. I shocked myself but I shook my head. "No!" I said again, not really sure what I was saying no to. "I'm hungry." I said when I finally stopped having my break down. I brushed my hair out my face and licked my lips. "We can go now." I mumbled.

He stood staring at me in pure shock but didn't say a word. He started driving again and wrapped his fingers with mines. "I'm here." Was all he said after a few minutes if not understanding my break down.

Two Weeks Later

I stood next to Drew as they arrested John. Lianna fell on her knees. Tears streaming down her face, and I cried to. For the fact that I did this to her. I walked up to her slowly, and kneeled next to her so we where face to face. I put my hand  on her shoulder. It was the best I could do. I couldn’t change none of this even if I wanted to.

                “I am---“ I chocked on a tear and I looked away. “I’m so sorry.” She laid her hand on mine and shook her head.

                “I’m sorry. I should of known. I had a feeling that he was doing things but I never wanted to admit it. I’m so sorry, I failed you. I should have been here. You were just a child. I blame myself---“

                “Please Lianna, don’t say that. You were great to me. I loved being around you and talking to you. You didn’t know that he was going to do this. Don’t blame yourself.”

                “No kids and now I have no husband. I’m alone.” She cried even more and covered her face.

                “You’re not alone….” I said. “I’m here.” I took her hand and placed it on my tiny belly and smiled. “And my baby needs a grandma.”

                She looked up at me, shocked, her tears drying at the corners of her eyes. “Really?” She asked.

                I nodded. “Really."

Five Months Later

                “Push baby you got this.” Drew said holding my hand.

                Lilly looked sick and walked out the room with a bag in her hands. Lianna was by my side holding my other hand. “Come on, you can do this Jess.” She said.

                I took a deep breath and pushed as hard as I could. I took another deep breath and started to scream. The pain was getting stronger now. I felt like I was being ripped open. I gritted my teeth and pulled Drew closer. The pain suddenly went away and I lost grip on both hands I was holding and I took fast deep breaths with my eyes closed.

                I heard the sound of a baby crying and I smiled.

                “You did it.” Lianna said.

                Drew started kissing me on the lips and I felt him smile between kisses. “Baby, we’re a family now.”

                I loved the fact that he never left my side.