Moment with God (Book 2 of With God Trilogy)

XXVIII

I was breathing heavily. Someone with the stroke of lightning saved me. A portal appeared which lead me to a peak. "Is this finished?" I breathed again. "This is already the peak." 

Did I win?

My question was answered not the way I wanted.

"You did well. Go down the bottom of the trough." God said.

I knew God knows the inside of our hearts, so I sighed deeply. I wanted Him to feel what I'm feeling.

"I completely feel what you are feeling, Janice." He said.

I shook. He really knows. He knows the inside of my heart. He knows what I feel. I felt I tried Him and I feel guilty.

"Janice, the next phase will not be as easy but always know that I am here. I will never leave your side." He assured me. God's assurance was the most comforting words I have heard while I am here in this place. 

"Thank You Lord." I humbly knelt before Him. "I'm sorry Lord if I doubted."

The bright light shines and I knew God saw me.

I continued to go down the trough and a portal appeared when I arrived at the bottom. I inhaled deeply and as I exhaled I was delivered to our house. I miss being here. After a minute, dad walked to the living room and mom walked down the stairs. 

"Now, what Sania?" Dad asked. "Why do you decide without me?"

"I did this for her. For daughter, Joseph!" Mom trying to prove a point.

"You have no point, Sania. You should have asked your husband first. You know.." Dad walks near the window and looked outside, thinking of what else to say.

"Okay, I'm sorry. I'm sorry. But please, understand Janice."

"Don't you think I don't understand her. I want her to feel normal, like she is any other teenager, that she is accepted in any school despite her condition."

"You don't understand me, Joseph. Janice needs people who makes her feel welcome. There are so many incidents where many bullied her verbally. Janice doesn't hear those but I hear those clearly even if I am far away."

This was the time mom made sure that I was asleep. So, this is what happened? Skeleton hands suddenly appeared behind dad. They rested on dad's shoulders.

"Sania... I do not think I could understand you. You're difficult."

What?! Did dad say that?!

The skeleton appeared on his back and whispered something to him. "You know what?! I give up on you!" He said and walked out the door.

Mom was shocked as well. She can't believe that my dad would say that to her. There were tears strolling down in her face as she went upstairs. While my eyes followed mom, my eyes caught the sight of their wedding picture hung on the wall beside the stairs. It was a beautiful picture compared to what my eyes saw. 

So, I followed dad and I saw him sitting and standing and sitting and standing continuously. He is not calming down. He was bothered by what he said to mom. But what terrified me was when I saw the ugly creatures again surrounding my dad. They were whispering and laughing at dad. 

Alright! That's it! I won't let him be bothered by those ugly creatures! I ran to him but the creatures saw me and three of them blocked me. I raised my sword and I quickly slashed one creature into broken pieces. I slashed the second as he escapes and lastly, the third. 

Dad was there standing, crumpling his hair and punching the wall. I could see his pain. Why does it have to be me? Why does my family have to argue because of me? I get both my dad and my mom's point but hearing dad's point, I kinda agreed with him. I wanted to feel that I'm not just the other teenager who is labelled deaf. I don't want to be discriminated because of my condition. Dad was crying and it was the first time I see him cry.

Shockingly, the pieces of his body came back together. I was horrified because he looked more hideous than before. What should I do, Lord?

Dad went inside the house and they followed him. Mom was not anymore in the scene and dad sat down. He was bothered and I can see it in his face. When He got the glimpse of the Bible beside the couch, he exhaled deeply. Dad knelt down with his hands clasping together. When I found him on his knees, I got reminded who I am serving. I raised my sword and spoke God's Word,

"Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." - Philippians 4:6-7