Faded Memories

CHAPTER 9

Part of Recovery

Gab's POV

Sinubukan kong sundin ang advice ni Sophie, sa una sobrang hirap nito para saakin dahil kailangan kong pigilan ang sarili ko na sungitan sila pero habang lumilipad ang araw ay mas nababawasan ang takot ko at mas nagkakaroon ako ng confidence para makipag usap sa iba.

I even realize na hindi naman pala lahat ng mga lalaking nasa paligid ko ay maaring ma attach ako.

I even get closer to them especially to Zack.

Sinubukan kong makipag kaibigan sakaniya and like what Sophie told he's not that bad actually he's really helping me in recovering my phobia.

Magkasama kami ngayon sa field at magkatabi na nag uusap.

"Hindi ko inaasahan na hindi moko sinusungitan" Napailing iling siya habang pinapanood ang iilang mga soccer player na nag t-training.

"It's a part of my recovery" I smiled at him.

Alam kong alam na ni Zack ang phobia ko na ito and I'm very thankful to him na nandiyan siya para tulungan ako sa recovery ko.

Even na na sungitan ko siya before at madalas naaway ko siya pag inaatake ako pero he's still there to understand and help me.

"Actually I really need to say thank you for you, isa ka sa dahilan para maging parte ng recovery ko. " I looked at him and smile.

He's serious piercing eyes is looking at me curiously.

"And I just want to let you know na I don't hate you, the fact is your a great person at all" Ngumiti ako at tumayo sa pagkakaupo at naglakad pero bago ako makalayo ay nagsalita ako.

"And you don't need to change yourself to be liked by other. The fact is your really amazing for me the way you are" Nilingon ko siya at nginitian ng matamis.

Nakita ko ang gulat sa mata niya.

Muli akong naglakad palayo.

Zack's POV

"Actually I really need to say thank you for you, isa ka sa dahilan para maging parte ng recovery ko. " She look at me with her beautiful gray eyes.

I feel curious on what she's saying and I know I can't hide it in my look.

"And I just want to let you know na I don't hate you, the fact is your a great person at all" She smiled at me that makes my heart beat so fast. I'm trembling on what she's saying now.

Tumayo siya at naglakad ngunit bago siya makalayo ay nagsalita siya.

"And you don't need to change yourself to be liked by other. The fact is your really amazing for me the way you are" She look at me and smile the first sweetest smile I saw from her from the first time.

I don't know but I don't know what to do, it's like I'm stuck on what she just said.
Hindi ko siya nasundan dahil sa pagkawala ko sa sarili ko dahil sa mga sinabi niya at sa ngiti niya. In the end I found myself smiling and thinking on her sweetest smile.

She's really beautiful and at that time I'm really sure on what I felt and I promise to myself that I'll do everything to win her.

Kinabukasan ay muli ko nangang binalik ang dati kong itsura.

I felt good again dahil hindi ako sanay sa mga sinoot ko ng mga nakaraang linggo.

But I don't mind being irritated on those clothes as far as I made her happy I'm fine with that.

Nang magkita kami ay nakita ko ang ngiti niya.

"Finally na miss ko yang Zack na iyan ah" He gave me fist bump.

Gab's POV

I'm glad na nandiyan hindi siya nawawalan ng gana sakin.

And I'm also glad na bumalik na ang original Zack na kilala ko.

Napansin ko rin ang pagbabago sakin, I can talk comfortably with him, hindi tulad dati na nag aalangan pa ko kung papansinin siya or what.

We are almost together, halos araw araw kaming magkasama at nag kukwentuhan.

And for weeks bring with him is really entertaining, hindi ako natitigil sa pagtawa sa mga kwento niya.

I'm in the park alone dahil wala akong klase sa last subject ko at si Zack naman  ay hindi ko kaklase kaya hindi ko siya kasama.

Nakaupo lang ako sa bench at pinanonood ang iilang mga soccer player na naglalaro.

I suddenly smile when one of my favorite song from the script band played.

I closed my eyes and appreciate the nature.

The music calm me and the cold wind passing on my skin felt relaxation on my thoughts.

Napadilat ako ng may nagtanggal ng earphones ko sa aking tenga.

I almost shout at the person nang makita ko si Zack na nakapikit sa harap ko at nakasoot ang earphones sa dalawang tenga niya.

He's very close to me, our lips almost touch in just a wrong move.

Namula ako ng maisip kung gaano siya kalapit ang mukha niya sa mukha ko.

I'm in the middle of nervousness when it suddenly flew away when I noticed his perfect face.

I can't stop but to focus and appreciate every part of his face.

In his perfect curve manly eyebrow, from his perfect shaped closed eyes, from his long curved eyelashes, from his perfect pointed nose and I stop in his thin pinkish curve lips.

It's very hypnotizing that I can't resist to look at it.

It's like it's pushing me to kiss it.

I felt my heart beat faster and faster, para itong nagwawalang lumabas sa isang hawla, I felt this before with one person but this time mas matindi ito.

I feel nervous in front of him, but I don't know why he look so perfect on my eyes.

My hearts starts to beat fast as he look at me.

Namungay pa ang mata niya nang tumingin saakin.

I can't hear anything as because my fast heart beat is blocking every part of my ears to stop distracting me on looking at him.

I don't know what I feel If it's real or what?