Sorry I exist?
Sorry you deal with me?
Sorry you have to see me going through all this bullshit when you don't want to see it?
Sorry you feel like you have to stick around and keep talking to me out of pity?
Sorry I get upset easy?
Sorry that "sorry" Is the first word out my mouth?
Sorry that I'm not sorry about anything anymore,
all that I feel when I say that word is cement,
pulling my head down to look at the floor
in pretend sadness and shame
so that no one gets any more angry with me?
Sorry that the world is so fucked up?
Sorry that im falling apart and you can't stop it?
Sorry that you never asked for this but surprise bitch I'm here and apparently no one wanted me?
Sorry that I'm not perfect?
Sorry that I never will be?
Sorry that my family still expect me to be a pretty little housemaid to do all the chores?
Sorry that I may never see you?
Sorry that I've broken every promise I ever made?
Sorry that I'm a failure?
Sorry that as a failure,
I don't deserve to live but I keep going?
Sorry that no one wants me anymore?
Sorry that I'm a pathetic excuse for a human?
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry.
Sorry that that word holds absolutely no meaning anymore.
Sorry.
-"why are you apologising?"
-Mel 🖤
YOU ARE READING
Shades of the heart
PoetryThis is my second poem book. The first one started off with really bad poems but got gradually better, but by then people hated my poems and deleted the book from their library, lol. The first book is called shades of the mind.
