Shades of the heart

~7~

Underneath it all-
All the words, the fighting.
We're all just human.
We have skin, and a heart.
And both things are broken so quickly and so painfully that,
Sometimes we forget what it's like to love.

But words are our outlet-
Or mine, at least.
They're my one way to be heard-
To make people feel what I feel,
To understand the pain of breathing every day.

Because some days-
It's so difficult to breathe that I sometimes forget how.
On others, I'll hold my breath until I can't anymore,
Just for that adrenaline rush.

And sometimes,
I'll just breathe,
Like a normal girl.

And on those days-
On those days I feel the least like me.
I'd prefer to be scarred and upset,
And willing to die,
To being a perfect little shell.
I don't want to be soulless,
And so I'll hold my breath.
And keep holding it.

Everyone is allowed to be different-
It's not a taboo thing.
And for all those people that hold their breath,
I raise you a question.
What does it matter that you're different?

We're all just human.
We have skin, and a heart.
And both things are broken so quickly and so painfully that,
Sometimes we forget what it's like to love.

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-So sorry that I haven't been updating, a lot of shit has happened, and currently I'm not in the best mental state. I'll get there though xx
-Mel 🖤