You can't just remove hurt from your skin like it never happened.
People are mobile tattoo machines and the marks they leave on us are pretty easily seen
Like for example maybe his fingerprints aren't really burned on my skin but
I still don't feel clean whenever I think of him.
and maybe the bones he broke healed long ago
But I still flinch when someone raises their voice and
Maybe I'm technically whole but I still feel like
I'm missing my soul.
People don't get it, they don't.
Unless you're covered in blood, they think you're okay
Unless your story is raw enough, they dismiss your pain.
Last night I thought I heard him laughing and
I almost passed out. Four days ago, someone was
Wearing his cologne in the hallway and I had to throw up.
It doesn't wash out.
He's still in your hair, but people get tired of hearing you mention it.
He's still under your sheets, but people get used to how you don't sleep.
No matter how many times you scrub the cloth between your blistered palms,
Your memories don't wash out.
You just get better at handling it.
My mother tells me that time heals all wounds,
It's really that you gain experience in dealing with the pain.
I don't know if it ever goes away, you just learn to be strong despite it one day.
-Mel🖤
YOU ARE READING
Shades of the heart
PoetryThis is my second poem book. The first one started off with really bad poems but got gradually better, but by then people hated my poems and deleted the book from their library, lol. The first book is called shades of the mind.
