My Mask: Unveiled

Act 2

It would seem that people enjoy my mask more than they enjoy me...

I show them how happy and nice i can be and they fall in love with it. Yet i feel insecure about exposing my humanity because they hate it, they hate me, my reality...

They are triggered by the slightest exposure of my humanity. I must be an emotionless robot with the soul purpose of making others happy and that's what i'll be from now on.

I have become used to being used, it doesn't affect me anymore.

I have become an emotionless and void shell. I feel not and i will try to keep it that way. It's better this way, my emotions only ruined things and now i'm free. I'm free from having to worry about myself ruining things...

I'm free and i like it this way...

I have changed, i have matured, i have become enlightened, i have realised my worth and my purpose in life. I'm not human, i am the concept of joy and that's it. I am a tool of happiness...

Nobody will be harmed by this change...

Loving, caring, affectionate.

I don't deserve to feel right? just make people happy and return to the void in which i reside? Change for everyone, never show my humanity?

It's sad that i can find a way to deal with everyone no matter what, yet no one can properly deal with me because apparently me not being ok ruins others' moods. I'm reminded that i'm just a failure because i make others feel bad and i'm forced to apologize for my emotions and for my humanity.

I guess i'm gonna kill myself. Kill the side that nobody seems to enjoy. Change for the better. don't fucking ask for it back since i wasn't very much appreciated for being human and for being not ok. I seem to be very patient, open and accepting, sometimes even too much, all to protect and take care of others. But when i'm down i get attacked and hated.

welp, goodbye, i'm different now. always happy only :)