Love is Pain Sweetheart

Chapter 16

I wash my self in the water pit carefully and slowly because every bone in me seems to ache. I look over at the ripped and tattered red dress. I trace some of my forming bruises and th many more that are already a bright blue and purple. I feel my lip from the cut thats in it. My stomach feels sore. I feel a like theirs a hole in my heart.  Like it was just ripped out and torn to shredds then buried so I coud never find it. It hurt. A pain that you will never feel unless you have your heart truly broken.  I wash the dried sticky tears off my face in the cold water. I sink myself into the cool  water. I wrap myself in its embrace. I just let my self fall lip and let the water hold me up. I feel like for once I am not the one thats holding the weight of the world on my shoulders. Now the water is the only thing that is holding m up. I feel the slight tug of the medal braclets on my wrist that remind me I am a chained soul. The freezing medal makes my delicate wrists hurt. It feels as though the medal is freezing my nerves to my wrist bone. 

                                                          6 HOURS AGO

" Lets go." jasper yells to me from outside. I put on the black heels and walk out the door. He outstretches his hand offering help. I glare at him and walk past. That should take some of his ego off. Oh but no he cant take it. He slams down on my forearm.

" I am trying to have a nice evening with you. Dont push me past my limits sophie darling." Huh a nice evening.

" I thought you werent playing nice anymore.Or is this just part of your sick game."

" Ok no more nice guy." He entwines our fingers and starts pulling me down the dirt path. " Lets go sweetheart. We are going to have a wonderful evening." Why did I half to get smart.

He pratically throws me in his car on the drivers side and climbs in while I am scooting over. This damnn dress only reches my mid thigh. Offely short for my liking but not to short for him. Its just perfect for him. Because when I sit it inches up quite a bit. I stair out the window and get lost in thought about the stupidest things. Like I dont know why my brother doesnt care if jasper kills me. Or like how jasper threatned to kill blake today oh and dont forget me as well. Etc. Meaning along with all the other crap. Well anyway I was so lost in thought I didnt realize that jasper was almost yelling at me trying to get my attention.

" Oh what sorry."

" Pay attention sophie. I hate it when you just phase out like you are just stairing into the darkest abyss."

" Sorry" I bow my head down like he was some kind of God.  I mean his ego was big enough.

" Lets just go." I looked up to where we were and realized we were on a dark road. A dirt road. It reminded me of the places that ryan took me. Speaking of ryan I wonder how mad he is finding out that I have disappeared. Only to be put into another mess.

" Wait ya no I am not going into a field with you."

" Oh yes you are."  It was like he knew my expirences with fields and he wanted to bring back  horrible memories.

We walked into the field. Jasper pulling me the hole way. When we reached the middle of the field we stopped. The moon was bright and shinning lighting up all the twinkling stars. A light wind was in the air making the the wheat field blow around sending a low whislte in the air. The air smelled so fresh. The crickets were buzzing singing their own song to the wind.  I pull away from jasper and walk a ways into the field just a few steps. Its beautiful. I take a deep inhale of the of the fresh waft of breeze flowing. I cross my arms and grasp my upperarms because it is a little chilly and well i am in just this little dress. I knock off my black heels that are killing my feet. Now I am short again. Atleast they made me taller. I think they gave me a bravery boost.