'so Elise how've you been.' Dad said trying to sound happy
'Em, good i guess, just like school n shit.' i said staring at the floor, I've always been shy but he's my dad i thought I'd find this easier.
'Still as shy i see , eh kid.' He said putting a hand on my shoulder, he went for a hug n i backed away. 'I don't like being touched by people i don't know remember , Aspergers.' I whispered while playing with my hands. 'Well yeah of course i remember just when you were a kid you loved hugging me.' he said sounding disheartened.
'It's been two years Dad you barely know me anymore.' I said , I instantly regretted it as i felt the atmosphere in the room go from awkward to unbearable.
'I'm sorry Elise ,I should of payed more attention to you i brought losing 2 years of my own daughter on myself, I'm a fucking idiot.' he said sounding sympathetic to how i felt. More than an idiot I thought to myself.
'So how's shit been with friends, have you got a boyfriend?' He enquired
'Yeah me and Catherine are still best friends and my boyfriend Nathan, well was my boyfriend i can't see him now cause well i live here.' I said forcefully with a hint of anger in my voice. 'Catherine i remember her nice girl, you could have her out to visit if you would like? As for your boyfriend your fourteen I'm happier you don't have one.' he said, damn he sounded like a proper dad. This angered me , big time. 'And who the fuck do you think you are to tell me what i can't do, you've never been interested in me or my life don't act like a Dad now cause your not, you don't know one thing about me.' I screamed he was taken aback. 'Elise' he said barely above a whisper 'it's El' I hissed back at him , venom in my voice. 'I'm sorry, I'm so sorry for how I've neglected you. My own daughter grew up without a Dad because i was too busy with girls, alcohol and music.' he said his voice trembling. I just walked up to him and hugged him i didn't know what else to do i was so angry but at the same time i loved him, i think? I wanted a Dad my whole life and he was finally here willing to try.
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Gerard ways daughter
Fanfictionim terrible at descriptions but hopefully you'll enjoy its set in 2007 black parade era (:
