s e e i n g b l i n d

t h o m a s

i woke up in a small room, in a small bed, it looked like a studio, there were guitars and a piano everywhere with music sheets scattered on the table

i knew i wasn't in my room when i tried to get up and saw the boy who came up to me last night

"alexander..."

i whispered and smiled running my hand through his hair, he was still sleeping so i slowly got up and threw on my clothes that had been scattered across the floor, i looked around and took in the room as much as i could before i got ready to leave i was about to turn and leave before i heard a voice

"drar så snart?"

i chuckled

" who said i was leaving"

alexander rolled his eyes and got up throwing on clothes

"it's okay if you leave ya know, i get it, it was a rager, we were drunk and even though i remember everything clearly and felt that spark i know you did, it wouldn't hurt that much, i mean i wouldn't recover right away and seeing you at school would suck but, it was just drunk sex"

i shook my head and sighed

"du får meg til å høres ut som en pikk-alexander"

he shrugged and finished getting dressed

"who said you aren't one, now if you don't mind, i have a song to write"

i grabbed one of alexanders flannels and put it on before walking out of the bedroom, but before i could leave, i heard his song and something told me i shouldn't leave

...

"They say everything is temporary
Who the hell are they anyways
I wanna know where does love go to die
Is it some sad empty castle in the skies?
Did we just shoot too high and spoil like wine?"

his voice was soothing and his words sounded so real, i smiled as i walked back closer to his bedroom door wanting to hear more

"You walked by and it's like our bodies never touch
No love, you hold me close, but I don't fell much
I cry, maybe time isn't on our side
We had a thing but we lost it
One more go, I kinda thought if we took it slow
It might be easier for us, yeah for us to know
I know we never been quite here before
I wish I knew it when we lost it"

as i got closer and listened to the words i realized he wrote this last night, he had to have wrote it last night while i was sleeping

"You used to try to wake the beast in me
There's still a very sleepy part of me inside
I've been waiting to come alive
You stared into my eyes and turned to stone
And now I'm living all alone
In these four wallsThere's a stranger, he's lying in my bed
Kinda blank like the thoughts living in my head
This is the one that I felt that I knew so well
I think we had it but we lost it
Still the guy that you chased all around the world
I haven't changed, just replaced all the chains with pearls
I want the same things we did back then
I know we had it but we lost it"

i slowly opened his door and walked in before shutting his door again

i walked over and sat on his bed, he was by his piano on the other side of the room facing away from me

"You walked by, and it's like our bodies never touch
No love, you hold me close, but I don't feel much
I cry, maybe time isn't on our side
We had a thing but we lost it
One more go, I kinda thought if we took it slow
It might be easier for us, yeah for us to know
I know we never been quite here before
I wish I knew it when we lost it
Yeah, I wish I knew it when we lost it"

i heard him hit the last note and sigh before turning around again, i looked at him dead in the eye and started to get up and walk over to him, i could feel him stiffen up as i placed my hand on his face and gently kissed his lips one more time

"it wasn't just drunk sex"

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a/n: gay culture is knowing the author is somehow gonna make something bad happen like the sAd bItCh they are