alexnader asborn had been dreading this day for 3 weeks, it had been 3 whole weeks since the homophobic hate crime that killed his twin brother, of course, he had done nothing but write a song, he knew he was gonna have to speak at the funeral and he didn't know how to unless it was through song, so for 3 weeks he worked and continued to work in his bedroom without leaving
thomas had come to visit him and so did daniel whenever he came out of his dorm which didn't happen for 2 weeks
daniel was in a wheelchair for the rest of his life and he watched the love of his life die in front of his eyes, he dreaded this day more than anything in the world
everyone's world had come to a screeching hault as there loved one had to be buried today
harrison and nick prepared together, they sat and prayed for anyone and everyone in nicks dorm room everyday after checking up on daniel
thomas had stayed by his lovers side, never leaving, he sat and layed wherever he could as long as he was next to alexander, he had already heard the song alexander was gonna sing today and he knew he was gonna have to see alexander go through all the pain again, he knew what it was like to lose a brother, but not in this way, not like this
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the funeral was held in a lgbt friendly church
caelums parents were there along with nicks parents
thomas's brother harry showed up, harry was the closest thing he had to family and he didn't want to see his brother leave again, so he invited him to move in, afraid of losing him for good
some teachers showed up that knew caelum for who he was
daniel sat at the front with his wheelchair next to alexander, who was shaking and crying holding his song for his brother in his hands
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"and now, a few words from caelum's twin brother, alexander asborn"
alexander shot his head up, dried tears on his cheeks with the song held tightly in his hand, he let out a shaky breath as thomas helped him stand up and sit at the piano
alexander thanked him quietly and waited for thomas to sit down before beginning
"Som de fleste av dere vet, jeg er en sanger-låtskriver, tvilling caelum alltid elsket å høre sangene mine, så her er en jeg skrev for ham ..."
alexander took a deep breath in as he looked at his friends and family and then to his brothers casket and then back to the song on the piano
he let his shaky breath out as he started to play the notes
{music is up top}
"I'd like to say "I'm okay", but I'm not
I try, but I fall, close my mind, turn it off
But I can't be sober, I cannot sleep
You've got your peace now, but what about me?
Thought we had the time, had our lives
Now you'll never get older, older
Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time
Getting colder, colder
One last word
One last moment
To ask you why
You left me here behind
You said you'd grow old with me
We had plans, we had visions, now I can't see ahead
We were one, we were golden, forever, you said
But I can't be sober, I cannot sleep
You've got your peace now, but what about me?
Thought we had the time, had our lives
Now you'll never get older, older
Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time
Getting colder, colder
One last word
One last moment
To ask you why
You left me here behind
You said you'd grow old with me
Thought we had the time, had our lives
Now you'll never get older, older
Didn't say goodbye, now I'm frozen in time
Getting colder, colder
Just one last word
One last moment
To ask you why
You left me here behind
You said you'd grow old with me"
alexander stopped playing, tears filled his eyes as he looked around to see all the shocked faces from friends and family, he looked over to daniel and thomas and started sobbing again falling out of his seat quickly, thomas of course rushed to his side and held him as tears fell on his cheeks
thomas helped alexander up as alexander started walking over to his brothers coffin he felt his heart stop, he slowly latched onto the casket and looked down at his brother, he smiled and reached for his brothers hand making sure he held it tightly
thomas watched holding onto alexanders waist tightly
"du var en god mann caelum, jeg vil savne deg lille bro"
thomas smiled as alexander let out a small chuckle and whispered
"only by 4 seconds alexander"
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a/n:
it was really hard to write those chapters, especially this one, but i am glad at the outcome, this book is supposed to be a real authentic book of stuff that lgbt people actually go through, i've been through this stuff and it's terrible but something that life just throws at you and you can't stop it, but you can fight for whats right
and if you were wondering what alexander said it was this
"you were a good man caelum, i'll miss you little bro"
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Romance"Å, min, min, du overrasket meg bare Og jeg kan ikke tro øynene mine Å, jeg må se blind Å nei, nå er du for god til å være min Nå ser jeg i øynene dine Å, jeg må se blind" /// social media x real life .... tom holland x male ocs
