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a l e x a n d e r

knowing that i couldn't sit around and wait for him to come back, i got up and got ready to head over to caelums dorm

"hei alexander, hva er galt"

i sighed and walked into his dorm room, i didn't want to talk about the boy who left my dorm after what happened but i knew i had to

"i feel fucked up caelum"

i heard caelum sigh as he sat next to me, I always went to caelum as a child, we were twins, we just never really looked the same but august 11 2001 at 12am we were both born, he was indeed my twin, we had never been separated and knew exactly what the other was feeling

"it's the new guy right? thomas?"

i looked up at a smirking caelum

"how did you-"

he's friend's with nick, i met him after he was done in your dorm, so tell me what happened"

i looked down and away from caelum not wanting to say what i was about to say next, i knew what i was gonna say and i knew it couldn't happen or be right, it just couldn't because that means feelings and that means heartbreak

"it's okay to start falling for him alexander, you're human, we're human, it's what we do!"

i looked up at him with a hopeful look, i knew what i was about to do, i just needed permission, what i was about to do could ruin everything but to be honest, i didn't care that much

caelum smiled down at me and nodded and i knew it was okay to be me, for the first time i felt like it was okay to fight for what i wanted

i got up slowly and smiled before running out of caelums dorm and down the street to nicks, when i got there, nick opened the door confused and then smiled when he realized i was there

"hei alexander, hva er galt"

i panted and smiled before speaking slowly

"hvor er thomas?"

he smiled and shook his head before pointing across the street

"han bare forlot for å gå tilbake til sovesalen over gaten alexander, gå hente ham"

i thanked him quickly and ran across the street to his dorm, i knocked on his door a few times before he answered and there he stood, shirtless with his hair damp and some sweats on

"alexander-"

i grabbed him by his face gently and kissed him, he kissed back and we stayed like that until i pulled only inches away from him

"i know it wasn't just drunk sex...Jeg beklager thomas"

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a/n: dOnT wOrRy tHe aUtHoR dIdNt fUcK uP yEt