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alexanderthegreat: get together, finally getting out of my dorm :)

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tagged: lukasosterfield, harrisonosterfield, nicholasrobinson

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lukasosterfield: told you you'd look amazing :)

> alexanderthegreat: indeed you did :)

nicholasrobinson: oh so no photo creds ?

> alexanderthegreat: oOpS :)

harrisonosterfield: you really did tHaT

> alexanderthegreat: what did i do..?

> lukasosterfield: don't ask

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8pm

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i smiled and rushed to grab my jacket as i heard my doorbell ring throughout my house, i opened my door to see lukas standing there with a smile

"hei søt, er du klar?"

he reached out for my hand, i smiled and took his hand

"yeah, i'm ready"

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the get together was definitely more than that, it was a party, not a big one but it was hoste by people i didn't know, still i followed lukas, it's not like anything bad could happen, thomas left yesterday to go back to england, the only holland around was his younger brother harry who everyone adored, he was a freshman photography student and he didn't mess with anyone

lukas pulled us to the bar and got a few drinks, of course i drank, i didn't want to just stand there, so i drank as much as i could, i haven't had a drink in a while, so obviously i drank as much as i could, knowing i didn't want to remember what was going to remember tonight

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walking around the dorm being drunk off my ass kinda sucked but i needed to find lukas so we could get home, nick and harrison left after being kicked out for literally having sex on the dance floor, it was not a pleasant sight, or sound

i walked the halls slowly not wanting to hurt myself or anyone else, i just needed to find lukas, he was the only other person i knew and actually liked here, i stopped when i heard a noise coming from the only room with a closed door, it sounded like lukas so i opened the door, when i opened it i saw lukas literally sucking off someones face, tears stung my face as lukas and elio i think it was stopped doing what they were doing, anger raged through me as i yelled at lukas

"how could you! after knowing what thomas did! after what happened with caelum!"

lukas didn't say anything back he just tried to calm me down but couldn't

"after everything!"

the person next to him, elio finally stepped in and pushed me out the door

"you lost your brother, i get it, but don't pin it on everyone else around you, we have lives too alexander! and you know what, your brothers dead, and maybe he deserved it, maybe he didn't, but jesus, it's been almost two months since he died and thomas left, get over it! and get over yourself!"

i gathered all the anger and sadness inside me and looked elio straight in the eyes before punching him in the face, he fell to the ground, i looked at lukas one more time before i ran out of the dorm and down the streets as fast as i could before i ran into someone

i looked up to see harry and timothy, thomas's brother and the new freshman, they chuckled and helped me up slowly, i thanked them and held onto them so i didn't fall as they helped me back to my dorm, when we got there, harry set me on my couch as timothy shut my door and turned on dim lights

"you must be alexander, my brother doesn't stop talking about you, i'm harry holland and that's my boyfriend timothy reece"

i smiled as timothy walked over to me and handed me some advil

"hi, im timothy, im new here"

i smiled

"takk for at du hjalp meg folkens"

they nodded towards me and started getting up to leave, harry whispered something to timothy and timothy left but harry stood there looking at me, he sighed and shook his head sitting down next to me

"tror du at du noen gang vil tilgi ham"

i sighed, it felt weird to think about but i did miss him, i missed him a lot and i want to forgive him, after what elio said, i realized i had been closed off, i pushed thomas away when all he wanted was love and affection from me, i wrote songs for him every night after what happened, i only wish i could sing him, but was i going to ever forgive him? yes, yes i was

"i just know he misses you, that's all"

i sighed and leaned my head back, catching harry's attention

"Jeg savner ham også, og jeg skulle ønske han var her"

i looked over to harry, he was smiling, i smiled too, i knew thomas was different and for the month that i knew him and was with him, i had the greatest time, even if for most of it i was just writing songs and crying

"invite him to holiday concert, i know he's coming to see me and i know you're singing the song you wrote for him cause i'm on the committee, all you have to do is invite him, sing your two songs on how you feel and boom!"

i chuckled, harry was only a freshman and probably only heard thomas's side of the story and what happened, i shook my head and sat up

"you invite him and i'll sing"

harry smiled and pulled out his phone, pulling up thomas's contact, he quickly texted him and got up getting ready to leave, i sat back and smiled

"hey harry?"

"yeah?"

"thank you"

he ruffled my hair and i chuckled

"see you in a week pal"

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a/n:

a reunion? yes