Boys are idiots

23

-NEXT MORNING-

I woke up in Shawn's room. I think he was at school now. He left me here. I didn't wanted to go to school today. My brother just died. I cried a bit more. I took my bag and went down the stairs. I saw Shawn's mother.

"Good morning sweetheart. Can I make you a tea or coffee or something like that?" She asked me.

I wanted to go home but I really wanted to drink something. So I ordered a hot chocolate. It was delicious. I thanked her and walked home.

I freezed a lot.

I opened the door and saw my mother on the couch with her head in her hands.

She was crying.

"Hello Bay. I am sorry it wasn't your fault. I know it was an accident." She said.

I came to her and hugged her. I began to cry too. I saw four bottles of alcohol. They were empty.

"Mom what?" I asked.

"Everything is getting better." She said.

She was clean for five years and now she started again. That made me more sad and I wanted to cut again. But I promised to not to. I walked into Hunters room. I looked at his bed. His sheets had airplanes on. Next to his pillow was his teddy bear. I took his teddy bear and smelled on him. Hunter's smell. He smelled always like a healthy young happy kid. I looked at his drawings which were laying on his drawing desk. They were horrible but so cute. More tears rolled down my cheek and left a dark mark on the carpet.

I got a call from Nash.

'Hello Nash.'

'Hey Bay. How are you?'

'My mother started drinking again.'

Silence.

'You know that's not the best place to live. Alcohol is very dangerous.'

'But I love my Mom I can't leave her.'

'Forget what I said. Bay stay strong.'

'I want to see you tomorrow. Can you visit me?'

'Sure I'd love to. Right after school I'll be at yours.'

'Okay bye and Thank you so much.'

'I'll always be there for you.'

I hang up the call. Tomorrow I'll go to school. I won't see my Mom. Nash was so right I can't live with her. It is too dangerous to live with an alcoholic person. But I love her so much. I can't lose her too.

-NEXT MORNING-

I woke up and made myself ready for that day. I put on my black jeans again and a blue hoodie. I didn't put makeup on.

I walked to my school. I saw Cameron. Oh I missed him so much. I was getting nervous.

"Look who's here. The little hoe." Cam said while I walked by.

"I talked to you!" He said while he pushed me. He punched his fist into my stomach. I landed on the ground. I cried.

Cameron laughed and walked away. I hate him. What did I do? I tried to keep myself together again. I walked into the classroom. I was too late. So the teacher told me that I have to wait outside. I sat down next to the door. I heard the teacher preaching Math. I thought about the things that happened lately.

I am always having my blade with me I broke the promise again. I cut. That's what he wanted me to do. Cameron wanted to see me dieing. So I cut again. Deeper. And deeper. The blood dropped down on the floor. I cried and smiled at once.

-AT HOME-

I waited for Nash. I didn't want him to see how messy my face and everything of me looked. So I decided to put on some makeup and to make a messy bun. The door bell ringed and I opened the door. A smiling Nash was there with a bouquet of flowers. I smiled back and took the flowers. They smelled amazing. He followed me to my room. We sat down on my couch.

"I wanted to talk to you." I said.

Nash nodded. He was getting nervous. I think that he thinks that I will ask about being his girlfriend.

"I broke my promise to you. I cut again." I said straight away.

"Bay..." he took my arm and saw that the cuts are really fresh.

'OUCH' that hurt.

"Oh I am sorry" he said. He began to kiss every single scar on my arm. Every single one. It felt so good.

"You know Cameron Dallas?" I asked.

"Yeah sure. He is one of my best friends." He answered.

"You know that he is really mean to a girl at his school? He is like pushing and punching her everyday." I explained.

"Oh yes. He is telling me stuff of her. She is a little slut and she ..."

"I am that girl." I interrupted him.

His mouth was wide open.

Silence.

I pulled my shirt a little bit up so he could see the blue purple stain.

"I am so sorry... I ... I ... I don't know what ...." he stuttered.

"Nash I knew that you know Cameron but I didn't knew that you knew that girl."

"I didn't knew her... I didn't knew YOU ..."

"I thought you would be a caring guy. Not like all the others ... Nash ... just leave ..."

"But I love you."

"Leave."

"Bay ... I"

"LEAVE NASH I HATE YOU!"

Without any words he left my room and my flat. I began to cry. I was in love with the best friend of the guy who hates me.

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EVEN IF I SAY MY CHAPTERS ARE LONGER NOW THEY ARE NOT LONG :D

SORRY SHOULD I UPDATE?