What comes around, goes around like a hoola hoop

What I've decided

Hello there guys. As you can see, from my last insta story, I've been seen to be very happy so I guess you've understood that something went right to me on yesterday and as promised, I decided to make this special post.

First things first.

I went to talk to a professional who's a very close person to me. I can't tell you who is that person but our conversation did really me good. Of course I told them about all the problems I had been having on my internetic life as a total even tho I was anxious and stressed to tell them all. And I don't know if by watching a particular video that urges me to do it myself, but I feel determined to let go of all the shit that has happened to me from the internet behind and continue my Internet life quietly and nicely.
Especially my old friend who was special to me (but I still never ever throw or delete everything that has to do with her like trash because I appreciate them still. No matter what.) However, I decided to use the internet differently instead of having the choice to give up on it. I will never ever give so much gravity to shit that have happened so far. There have been more shitty things that I don't give a f@ck anymore, so why should I keep giving a f@ck to all the shit that happened to me in my internetic life this year? There's no point in doing that anymore. Also, I will never ever feel guilty for nothing and none. After all, those who have understood me have understood me. Those who had no intention of understanding me would have done that in the first place  if they wanted to. And to my sincerity, for helping myself, I do things that please me such as drawing, writing stories on wattpad, working on with foreign languages, drawing o.cs I loved so much and feel like I'm a keeper of them etc. makes me feel so good. Especially now that I've decided to let go of all the bad things happened in me behind. After all, some of them just got repeated because their purpose was to give me a message. Another important thing is that everybody is responsible for their lives, so each of us has to take care of their own life to make it better, awesome, anything we want our life to be and not take care of other people's lives, especially of the ones that rejected us. Plus, I don't have to give a f@ck of what people might say or think of me even behind my back, because I don't have to be interested in that. I decide who I am, I decide what I do, I know what I've done and what I haven't done, I know what I've fixed and what I haven't fixed! Although I can't expect of people to stop violating my life or trying to control me but I can at least not allow them to! Like I don't allow them to decided what I am, what I did and what I didn't do or what I'm not!

That's all~