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Those were only your thoughts, but you never heard my side.

You know that we did everything together.

You know that we have always been there for each other.

But what you do not know is that my feelings grew as yours did too.

They were mutual, only that they were not expressed.

And now the final answer... we cannot be.

Alyssa, you were the only wish that I didn't have.

I had a great family, great school, great friends, great teammates, two great championships... but I never had my great love.

And now that I'm planning for my wedding, I still cannot help but think, what if this was you?

Then thoughts came running into my head.

I was on Twitter when I saw a video of you taken after the Creamline game. It was the same day that Kiefer went back to playing basketball.

You looked so happy, chatting away with a big smile, sounding so proud of him.

I saw the sparkle in your eyes that you used to have wayback when you would find out that I made it to the dean's list.

You were cheering for him the same way you were cheering for me wayback season 73, when I was a rookie, and you were not able to play yet, for you had to serve your residency.

You were beaming, talking about how he was playing so well, like how you would tell our siblings how great I was at dinner after our games.

That should have been me, only if we were patient and brave enough to solve our equation.

That should have been me if I was tough enough to face the worries that we might have encountered.

It should have been me making you feel how you should be loved.

It should have been me making you feel that you are the most important woman.

I loved how your eyes sparkled for me back then, but we lost the current.

I loved the way you laughed with me back then, but we lost the magic.

I loved the way you would never give up on me, but we lost the passion.

We might have grown alongside one another, and our paths may have crossed, but things will now only remain as what-ifs, wishes, and hopes.

For I am now to be wedded to a guy whose name isn't Alyssa Caymo Valdez but who has made me happy and strong.

I love you, Ly, but not letting you go is wrong.

This is us now, not meant to be lovers, but I know that He had a purpose for why we met. 

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Hehe hi.

peace ad love.

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First written and published: September 13, 2019

Republished: June 1, 2024