I'm Only Human

Apology

"Am I supposed to apologize?"

Are the words I need to memorize

Because there's going to be a day

To where I'll look at you and say

Those five words, which mean a lot

Much more than anything you ever bought

Because I know that you groomed me

But that doesn't mean I have to be

This shell of a girl, so scared of her past

Because really, what you did didn't last

Sure, it hurts when I see you

But I know that you can't see through

The smile on my face that I constantly wear

And don't think for a second I don't see your stare

You wonder why, why I'm like this

It seems to you that something's amiss

But of course you don't say it, you act like it's nothing

And we just move on, no more fighting or cussing

It's just a memory, faint and blurry

I'm glad I only see you when snowflakes flurry

Because I loved you, man, I loved you hard

More than the annual birthday card

That you'd send to me, with money inside

I hope that my feelings soon will subside

Because it still hurts, like an open wound

But it won't be long until you're in a tomb

A tomb of regret, sadness, despair

And you will be judged by the man in the chair

Who watches us all from his place above

Sending down his undying love

Karma is already getting you now

And you don't see it? I don't know how

But the point is, I'm finally done crying

I'm finally done hoping, and I'm done denying

Because I've realized what you've chosen to be

And honestly, I won't let that affect me