What I Think About Love

A Dream

"It hurts dad." -I said with a red, swollen face.

"I know sweety. I know it does."

"Take me home please." -I said leaning on to his hands.

"Let's go." -my dad said holding me under my arm.

The car was parked in front of the hospital. We were in Portland which means we have a one-hour drive. I was in the back of the car, resting on the sit. I was awake the whole night waiting for Noah to rouse out of his sleep. I was watching my dad for a while now. I have noticed that he was depressed the whole time in the hospital. I first assumed that it was because of me so I didn't question it. Then I realised I was something else on his mind. He had a blank stare in his eyes. His face looked like he was miserable and sad and I just didn't understand why. 

"Dad is everything alright? You look kinda down." -I determined to ask him.

"Yeah, it's just. Something happened at home. But you should get some sleep first and rest from it all. We will talk tomorrow."

"Dad please tell me now. I've had a tough day and I don't think there's something that could bring me down even more."

"Barney passed away, grandpa called today." -dad said.

I wasn't shocked honestly. He was pretty old already. He lived longer than we ever thought the would. Barney was our dog back in Everett where my grandparents live. Barney was my light brown four-legged friend since I was just a little girl. He was here with us since I can remember. I loved spending time with him and having long walks on the beach. You could just see how grateful he was. People sometimes don't notice the things we do for them until we stop doing them but Barney, he was grateful for your one peek towards him. Have you ever noticed how your dog starts to waving with his tail just because you looked at him? That's pure love. People say animals don't have a soul and that they don't go into heaven. If you ask me, animals are the only creatures
that should be there.

"How's grandma holding?" -I asked my dad.

"She's" -he made a pause when saying that. "Okay. She's holding on."

"I should visit her for a day or two."

Dad didn't reply anything to me. So I just went back to sleep. As I laid down I felt his hand stroking my cheek.

"Goodnight Ro."

"Night dad." -I replied. I swear this dud manages to change my mind about him frequently.

I was sleeping most of the drive. I even dreamed. And what I dreamed frightened me. I dreamed about Jessica and my grandma. I miss her and I truly want to see her. I dreamed that it was our freshman year in high school and we were both still in the same class. As always we headed to my place after school, since my grandma is the best cock out there. When we arrived house was empty. I was calling my grandma but she wasn't answering and I got scared. My grandma has a benign tumour and doctors are saying that it could activate any time in the future and I was afraid that something must have happened to her. I was searching and searching but I couldn't find her.

"Ro we are home." -my dad shook me a little and woke me up out of the dream. I was full of sweat.

"Are you good Ro? You look exhausted."

"Yeah, I'm fine I was just having a bad dream nothing more."

"Okey then. You can now go to sleep in your bed and get some decent sleep." -he said helping me get up.

"Dad. Is grandma alright?" -I asked.

"Ro I have to tell you something but I can't say it now."

"Why not? I want to know what's happening. Are you aware that if you're hiding something and not telling me it will be worse later?" -I said with a threatening voice.

"I will tell you tomorrow. We are going somewhere so maybe take some clothes with you." -dad said.

"Where exactly?"

"Everett."

I will finally see my grandma after a month. I miss her and grandpa too. And this is the weekend Jessica is in town. Maybe it won't be such a bad week after all. I have to tell Jessica what happened with Mason and Molly. I'm not sure if I want to tell her about Noah. Honestly, I kinda want to forget him and I hope I will manage that in this few days that I'll be in Everett.

"Hey, Jess." -I phoned her when I got home.

"Hey Ross, what's up?" -a velvety voice that was soft and deep called me by my second nickname. Ross was my other nickname because I looked like Ross Lynch. Not like but I had blond hair and brown eyes so she gave me that nickname and it stick around.

"Are you in the town maybe?"

"I'm here for the whole summer." -Jessica said.

"Shut up. How come?"

"My parents decided to stay here since they don't have much work in the summer."

"Just when I'm here huh? We do have a lot of luck, do we? Anyway I wanted to say that I'm coming tomorrow so we can go out."

"Oh my God Ro. Finally. I can't wait. Give me a call when and where we are going to meet."

"Can't wait either. I have so much to tell you."

"Same Ross!" -she said happily.

"See ya then Jess. Bye." -I was so happy. At this point, I was jumping around the room and had a big smile on my face. I could feel that she was doing the same.

"Bye Ross."

We ended the call. I honestly can't wait for tomorrow.