What I Think About Love

Midnight Call

"Why won't you answer?" -Jessica asked me.

"It's him."

"Who?" -Jessica looked trying to concentrate. Joint hit her hard.

"Noah." -I said looking at the phone that was still ringing.

"Answer him. Don't be stupid."

"No. I can't talk to him right now." -I said undoubtedly.

"Why Ross?" -Jessica rolled her eyes.

"Well first I'm stoned and second I don't know what to say to him." -At that moment the phone stopped ringing.

"He called you Rose. He wanted to talk to you and he obviously cares about what's happening with you right now. I think you're making a bad decision by not answering."

"I'm going home tomorrow. If he wants to talk to me he will come up to me in person."

"Stop acting like you're hard to get and don't be such a drama queen Rose. He likes you for fuck sake. Can you not see that?" -Jessica said furious at my life choices.

"What? Why do you think that?"

"I heard only stories about him and what you did with him in this one month and all I got out of it is that you confirmed that he likes you. Well, he confirmed by calling you at twelve o'clock in the night. He obviously thinks about you before going to bed."

Thoughts started coming on my mind. I just didn't see that he liked me. He would always be so obnoxious towards me and trying to irritate me. But we still did have some nice moments together. I really liked him when we were talking that night on the roof. Like him? Do I like him?

"I think I should go home. It's pretty late." -I said when I realized I started overthinking too much.

"Party breaker." -Jess said.

"Are you going home too?"

"Nah, there's a party in town and I can't sleep right now."

"Do you want me to walk you there?"

"No. I want you to come with me."

"I just told you that I need to be home and you're telling me that I should go with you..."

"Okay, okay I won't push you."

"I'm glad we were together. I needed it."

"Me too Ross. I miss you up there up in Canada you know?"

"I miss you down here in Everett."

"Say grandma I say hey and that I send her lots of kisses."

"I will."

We got out of the playground and each went on her own way. That's the last time I'll see her this summer. I'm not sad about it cause I know it's not going to affect our friendship. I love her so much. She went through everything with me. She knows everything about me and I know everything about her. We were parts of each others family and that was also the way our parents treated us. We would call them a second mother or second father. Her father was really my second father. He was always overprotective when it came to us and we liked that. We would felt invincible then and like nothing can hurt us. He gave me that half-dad love I was missing.

"Say bye to grandpa." -my dad said. We are going back to Cannon Beach today.

"Bye grandpa. Take care of yourself and don't miss me too much." -I said and hugged him.

"Bye Ro. And you should stop worrying. Don't cry about boys, they aren't worth it." - grandpa said.

"What?? Whos crying about boys??" -I said defensively.

"You know if a boy likes you he can turn out bad just because he's trying to show you that he likes you."

"Grandpa?!" -I said loudly.

"So it is a boy that's causing a problem!" -grandpa said laughing.

"Noo!" -I said trying to hold my laugh.

"Well, you will have one eventually and now you are prepared and you will know why they turn out like dumbasses."

"Bye grandpa." -I said pretending to ignore what he said.

"Bye Ro." -he said smirking. I could feel his smirk behind my back.

"Bye dad." -my dad said to grandpa.

"Watch out for yourself Robert." -grandpa hugged him hard and tapped on the back.

"You too dad." -they were both now in tears.

"Come on girls let's go." -I said jokingly.

On the ride home I was thinking about Noah and his call yesterday. What if he's not going to talk to me when I come back home? Should I go to him first? Was he even home out of the hospital? I'm so confused right now. I want to talk to him but I just can't. We'll see when I come back how the thing will play out. In the end, we have connected windows practically. It's not like I can avoid him.

"Everything okay Ro? You look distant." -my dad asked me.

"No dad. I think I'm in a lot of trouble. Feelings are starting to catch up on me."