What I Think About Love

True love.

Before we had entered the house me and my dad calmed ourselves. He tried to hold his tears so that he could avail me to stop too, but he couldn't hold it inside and I understood him. I didn't want from him to hold it in. He loved her like she was his mom and was so thankful that she embraced me and took me into her arms. That amazing woman replaced my mother's place and was there in my hardest times. She gave me a childhood that I then anticipate I would never have without a family. She changed that, gave me family and taught me that the perfect family doesn't always have to be your mom and dad, but the people who want you in their lives and the ones who accept you and love you just the way you are. She would do anything to make me smile when the times got rough and like that shaped me into a person I am today. I'm unimaginably grateful to have such a strong and beautiful woman in my life. And now it is time to let her go. Let go of a person who had a big part in my life. At least she will finally see her little angel up there. My mom.

"Are you ready to go inside?" -dad asked me still hugging me.

"I think I am." -I said wiping my tears from the face.

"Grandpa will be so happy to see you. You will give him strength." -dad said stroking my swollen face.

"When are we going to the hospital to see her?"

"After lunch."

Going into the house, the scene was more than grief-stricken. The walls felt like sadness residing in them. The air itself was in despair. The windows, which would always be open and overlook the sunlit shore, were darkened by sorrow and there was the old man too. Sitting in his old, red armchair that had never before looked so mournful. He was dominated by a profound sadness which was shown on his worn face. The sorrow grew more fervent each minute he spent in his quiet, lonely capsule with the dignified walls reviving the memory of the losses he'd encountered in his life. "All that we love deeply becomes a part of us and its never gone" he would say to himself as he stared in the wall with all of the framed memories. No longer could you see that desire, that fire in his eyes. He was a figure, more than a man now. The tear that fell down his cheek had more to say than anyone in this world. It screamed, but was finally free.

I ran into his lap and hugged him tighter than anyone ever before. He had two great loss in his life and only a man stronger than all the oceans and seas on the planet, all the winds that create the storm, a man that is stronger than himself.

"I love you so much grandpa." -I said shrinking him even harder with my thin arms.

"I love you too Ro" -he said with a true smile on his face even tho his world was falling apart. That was how strong and positive I want to be in my life. "So what are we going to cock?" -he added.

"I'm in a mood for something out of the sea. How about you guys? -I asked but didn't realized that grandpa still didn't see that dad was here. They haven't seen each other for 9 years since my dad left. Grandpa turned towards him and even brighter smile appeared on his face.

"My son." -grandpa said tearing up.

"Dad. I've missed you so much my dad." -dad walked happily towards him like he was still a child. Parenting is a lifetime job and love does not stop when a child grows up. A parent's love is whole no matter how many times divided. And that is when I first met true love. Pure as it can be. Waits for you no matter how long you were gone. Loves you unconditionally.

After an hour of group crying and family bonding, we finally started with lunch. We did have some seafood but we didn't prepare it ourselves because we needed to hurry to the hospital. Honestly I was glad they didn't make it. Neither of them is a good cock and in the end we would be left without lunch.

We got into the car with four packaged servings of fried squid with fries on the side. We took grandma one too. She loved fried squid and we know that the food in hospitals is poorly made.

We were getting closer to the hospital and my heart was racing because I didn't know what to expect to see. Nobody knew. Grandpa called the hospital to ask if we can come and all they said was to prepare ourselves.

"Here it is. The hospital" -grandpa said to alarm my dad to turn.