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24. Roses 🥀

Today,

For the first time

I embraced the thought

Of what it

Would feel like to be

Gone for good.

I looked deep into the

Catastrophic equation

Called life

Trying to figure out

Where I fit in

Nothing made sense

Everyday,

I heard big stories about

People's dreams and

Future plans so clear cut

And well thought out

I wondered why I didn't feel

Thrilled to let My mind

Journey there 🚵🏽‍♀️

Maybe because It's been uncertain

what tomorrow would be?

Curve balls from unknown directions

One moment I'm rejoicing

Over a breakthrough

And in a few minutes

I'm shut up by more of life's struggles
🤐

Well I was fed up

Today

And for the first time

In My life, it sounded like

A better option to go

As silly as it sounds

Maybe then the expenses will

Be less I thought and life will

Be easier for everyone else🤔

Maybe...

It's funny how people

Always say,

"Ohh how selfish of you to go

couldn't you have

Thought of how your-

Actions would affect

everyone who cared?"

That's the thing I didn't think

At the moment

All I could remember was

Feeling drained, worn out,

Spaced out, cold and alone

But I still walked around-

As usual, smiling and waving to

The few familiar faces I recognized

Along the hallways ,🌋