I look at my friends which is now sleeping on the floor of my room...
Earlier after revealing to them my past, we decided to drink... But unlike them, I'm still sober....
So I grab the remaining beer, saka ko pumunta sa veranda ko... I sit on the floor and look at nowhere in particular, before chugging one of the beer...
It didnt took long when I felt someone sit beside me...
Jace...
"Hey.." he said, It's funny coz he sounded so awkward this time, I mean the way he greeted me...
"Relax Jace, ako lang to" I told him while laughing, but he remain serious, kaya I look at him, this time ako namn yung na awkwardan dahil sa tahimik nya..
"After hearing, what actually happen to you... I-I don't know how-", "please don't pity me" pagpuputol ko sakanya... Kaya napatingin sya sakin
"weird right? I told you guys the truth, yet I dont want to be pitied...
...
Pero yun yung isang bagay na pinagmamakaawaan ko dati" I says as I laugh bitterly "I want them...
To atleast take a pity on me para... Para itigil na nila yung ginagawa nila sakin...
Everytime na pinaglalaruan nila ko,
pinagtatawanan,
pinandidirian...
that's the thing I wanted them to atleast feel... Pity...
To make everything stop...
But no one did" again, I laugh. But pain is visible on it...
I take a sip on my beer, and let a huge sigh...
"Pero when it stops, and everyone knew what happen to me... When everyone look at me, talk to me...
All I could see was pity...
But instead of relief, I felt very low...
Instead of feeling good, I felt very pathetic...
Na when it ended, I didn't know that it won't end just like that...
Seeing your parents not being able to handle to look at you without crying...
Felt more painful than those punches, those kicks, and even the cut of my skin...
So I wanted to die... Coz I don't want them to give me that look.. "I told him...
I quickly wipe off the tears I felt and smile awkwardly at him...
Kagad nya kong inakbayan at hinimas ang likod ko...
" Don't worry, I don't stay beside you because I pitied you, but because I wanted to"he told me as he gave me a reassuring smile...
Which makes me chuckle...
" Yah are you trying to get on my pants? " I jokingly ask him...
And he literally roll his eyes and lightly push me away...
"Seriously park? I'm trying to be sincere here" he irritatedly says
"so you're not sincere? Because you're just trying?" i ask him.
But he just make face before looking away to me...
Looking irritated..
And I was a bit startled when he suddenly look at me again
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GELOTOPHOBIA(DARAGON)
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