i loved you ▶ minjoon #WATTYS2019

◀fifteen▶

「i know that what i'm saying right now is really stupid」

jimin hummed as he pushed back on to namjoon who was right behind him, leaning his head on the crook of his neck, the couple was in the bath, jimin was still feeling tired, due to pregnancy and just the shock his body experienced from his mark being deepened. 

he closed his eyes as namjoon cleaned him, he loved the relaxing scent of the bath bomb he had chosen "i missed you, you know." jimin whispers, letting the alpha roam his hands over his body.

his eyes fluttered shut as he let the alpha have his ways with him, he missed him, he missed his namjoon. he still thinks he's dreaming since everything had magically become somewhat okay "where did you stay?" jimin asked, grabbing on to the sides to pull himself up 

"stayed at hope's, i was so ashamed at what i had said to you and couldn't face you." namjoon says, following jimin's actions and he plants butterfly kisses on the back of his neck 

"i would come home to you asleep, i did that on purpose because i didn't know what to say to you, since you avoided me so much, i figured i'll give you space." namjoon now leans his chin on his shoulder while his hand traveled down from the omega's chest, to his torso, his stomach and finally down the water, jimin's eyes widen 

"joon-ah, i can't.. i-" namjoon hushes him "i'm sorry, i forgot it can hurt the little one." he apologizes and jimin brought his hand up and kisses his knuckles "it's okay. we should get out, i'm cold." 

the couple was currently on their bed, in their pajamas, all comfy and cuddly "when did you find out?" namjoon asks referring to the pup "not long ago but i was already 2 months in when i knew, hyuna had to take me to the hospital." jimin explains 

"i should've been here for you." namjoon caresses the little bump "it's okay, you were at a business trip." namjoon bit his bottom lip when he realized he was with seokjin when jimin found out about the baby, he was selfish, he only thought of his own happiness as well as seokjin's, completely forgetting who needed him the most 

"what do you think we should name them?" jimin wonders, resting his head on namjoon's chest "do you think it's a girl or boy?" jimin asks again 

"girl, boy, we will love them just as much." namjoon pokes his cheek "i need names joon-ah!" jimin says playfully, pinching his side 

"i really like chanmi as a girl's name, it means praise." namjoon answers "and if it's a boy i thought of seungmin, it means cheerful." namjoon runs his fingers through jimin's hair "a word that would describe you." he adds "you're always so cheerful and it's contagious at times, you find happiness even in the darkest of times and praise is just for your praise kink." namjoon both explained and teased and jimin hits his stomach 

"i thought we weren't gonna bring that up!" the omega whines but namjoon just laughs and inside of namjoon's mind, regrets start to cloud in.

the moment he let seokjin have his way with him is the moment that broke his supposed unbreakable vow to jimin, he's angry at himself as to why he couldn't just be happy with what he already has. all this chaos and for what reason? 

because he started to fall out of love with him, with the omega always tending to their pup's needs but the past weeks he could only think about jimin and he started to think of how much of an asshole he is for even thinking that he doesn't love jimin but seeing his family again, the thought of having a new child between them, it was as if jimin had made his way back into his heart and he doesn't want to fuck this up again.

unfortunately, he had fallen for seokjin throughout the months and he found it hard to end things with him, however, a question circulated his mind, is it love or is it infatuation?