The night we met

Chapter 15

The next morning I woke up with Matteo's breathing on my neck and my back was pushed at his front as he hold me tight. I realized this was the first night I did not had nightmares. But Sophie's memory came back when I woke up.

I stood up and I went downstairs. I was completely mesmerized by the huge house I was in. I slowly walked into the kitchen still admiring everything.

"Good Morning Ms. Avaneda," a woman said as she mixed a bowl with eggs. She looked around her fifties and she was a little bit smaller than me. I got surprised when she told my name, how did she even knew it?.

"Hi, I'm sorry I was just looking for something to eat," I said giving her a shy smilie.

"Oh honey, what would you like?. I'm baking eggs, bacon and some pancakes, Is it good for you?," she said.

"Its perfect," I said smiling. I wasn't hungry but my stomach hurt because I hadn't ate since yesterday. I sat across her and watched her do the breakfast. "I'm sorry I didn't asked before, What's your name?."

"Fanny."

"Its a pleasure to meet you. But how did you knew my name?."

"Mr.Giordano told me yesterday about you when you were sleeping and actually you are the first woman he brings here," she said. I was actually surprised when she said that.

"I've taken care of him since he was six years old."

"Did you knew his mother?," I asked with curiosity as I looked at her back. I saw how she changed when I asked the question.

"Alice was her name. She was too kind and humble with everyone. She appreciated everything and always looked at the positive things when a bad moment came. Lorenzo was never the same after her death. She left a tattoo print in our hearts," she said sadly. Lorenzo was Matteo's dad, so that's his name.

"How did she.....," I said but suddenly stopped when Matteo entered to the kitchen later dressed in a gray smoking.

I tried to give him my best smile but I couldn't. I couldn't hide my sadness and melancholy. The pain was still there.

Was he leaving?.

"I'm going to many meetings but I promise you I'be back soon," he said apologetically.

I nodded. 

He looked at both of us one last time and left. I saw how he was still affected by yesterday's scene, but I think we both were.

I ate with fanny but then I went upstairs and told her I needed a time alone. I didn't asked how Matteo's mom died, I think it was better to ask Matteo so he could tell me himself.

As I went again into the room, I felt lonely and lost in my thoughts. I wanted to wake up and see Sophie's downstairs cooking with a smile on her face. I was traumatized more by Sophie's death than with my parents one. It was different, I saw how Sophie died on my hands.

I felt pain in my chest and it hurt so bad. I walked to Matteo's room and took my clothes off slowly. I was finally completely naked when I entered to the shower.

I took a hot bath and sat down on the floor as the hot water fell all ver my body relaxing every muscle.

I cried and sobbed quietly as I quietly said, "I'm sorry Sophie, this is my fault. My fault." I stayed there for a long time until my whole body was completely warm and relaxed.

I finally got out of the bath and took some of the comfortable clothes of Matteo. A long pant and t-shirt. As soon as I finished dressing myself I laid in bed and covered myself with the soft bed sheets. My eyes felt heavy and I slept quickly.

••••••••
The next few days I didn't ate and I looked horribly. Sophie's death had traumatized me and her memory invaded my mind every day and mostly the nights when I slept.

I couldn't believe how things could affect us too much. The mind is the key to everything, its responsible of the way we think and we see things.

Matteo hadn't slept with me during the last few days. I just wanted to be alone even though I wanted to be with him every night but I couldn't, its like a part of me had died. He still came into the room and he just sat down on the edge watching me, but I never looked at him. I didn't wanted him to look at me like this. I felt his weight as he sat down.

"Ava. You need to eat something," he said persuasively.

"I want to be alone. Could you please leave," I said burying my head on the pillow holding it tight with my hand.

"Not until you eat something," he said as he got up and brought a bowl with soup which smelled delicious, but I didn't had appetite. But I knew if I didn't did this, he wouldn't leave.

He sat down again and I sat as I watched him grab the spoon. He raised the spoon with soup and I opened my mouth as I swallowed the liquid and felt the warmth in my whole mouth. Our gazes met. Who was this Matteo?

He cared for me too much and this kind side of him made my heart stutter. My body started to warm up under his soft and penetrating gaze.

I finally was done eating and he placed the bowl on the table beside the bed. I laid on bed again and turned around. He let out a harsh breathe and stood up.

Wait, Matteo. Stay with me tonight and always. Don't leave me alone, I said in my head. I really wanted him here with me. But I couldn't, the words didn't came out.

I saw how he looked at me one more time. His expression was remorseful and dejected. He finally turned around and closed the door leaving me alone in the room.

I began crying. I regretted not to talk to Matteo, it killed me every time. I felt gloomy. Why was I feeling so empty?.

I cried until I slept.

•••••••

"Ava! Come and help me!

"Sophie! Hold on. Where are you?," I said desperately.

She screamed agonizing. Where are you Sophie?

I opened my eyes ad I stood up from bed with impatience looking everywhere. Sophie I'm going, hold on. Hold on.

I opened the door breathless and ran in the hallways.

"Ava! Help me," a voice yelled. I heard it clearly. It was Sophie!

"Hold on! Where are you?!," I screamed looking everywhere. Hold on Sophie, I'm going to find you.

I went downstairs barefoot until I opened the front door. I ran outside and felt the cold and hard rocks on my feet. I ran until I got in the railroad. I stopped and looked everywhere. My body was shacking from the adrenaline. I'm going to find you Sophie. Just tell me where you are.

"Ava!."

Someone was calling me from behind. But before I could turn around a light came into my face from the railroad. No! I panicked as I saw the car in front of me. I sucked a harsh breath and closed my eyes waiting for the impact. Seconds later I fell on the hard ground but the car didn't hit me. Someone hold me tight.

I opened my eyes, Matteo. We were both on the floor as he hold me tight against him. He was breathing fast as I did. He saved me.

Matteo ran and saved me.

I suddenly realized I was in the railroad and that no one was calling me, it was just a voice in my head. A car almost runs over me. I began crying.

"Don't worry. I got you," he said in a whisper.

"I thought she was calling me," I said against his chest.

Matteo stood up and then I did. My head grew dizzy as our gaze met.  My legs gave out but before I could fall he rushed forward and grabbed me.

"I'm here," he said deeply as he lifted me up into his arms. What had just happened?

Matteo was an angel that came on the right time where I was alone and saved me on the darkest moments.

He saved me, again.