The night we met

Chapter 51

Its normal to have fears in your life. I don't blame you, I've got my own. Even the strongest and courageous people have them, its normal, we're all humans.

Fear it's something essential in our life.

Without fear we wouldn't be braver than we are. It changes us completely when we finally face it, and we somehow will. It will come in our life daily.

Fear its just the best lesson we will ever have.

The same question always pops in our head when we finally feel it, what do I do now? This fear makes our body shake, our chest tightening, our heart beating quickly and how our hair runs up making us have goosebumps.

Goosebumps are just a signal that we are feeling fear. Its serves us as a remainder and I'm feeling it when I arrive home that night.

Fear.

I'm losing my head right now, trying to find a way to finally tell Matteo about it. After a month hiding this, it will need to come to light. It always happens when we try to hide something.

Guilt consumes us always.

Always.

Matteo hasn't come home yet so I decide to take a bath to calm myself down. I went upstairs leaving my phone and my pijama on the bed to put them and use it once I'm done preparing myself. I get in the shower and feel the hot bath in my whole body making my muscles relax over the nervous feeling that has got them to harden. I don't bother to wash my hair so I put it in a high bun.

I wash my whole body trying to erase guilt from my body, to move it all away. But why guilt?

Guilt because I had hidden something to Matteo?

Its not like I had cheated on him or killed someone.

Alessio's look pops into my head making me feel scared of his penetrating gaze. He was looking at my lips for some goddamn reason I don't know why. If he had wanted to kiss me I would have moved away. Sorry but I won't kiss a man I don't have any feelings for, besides he fucking put a knife in my throat. He threatened me!

Ugh.

I finally close the shower after what felt like seven minutes because the hot bath didn't work for me. I wrapped a towel in my body and I opened the door.

I froze.

Matteo stood there breathing heavily as he looked at my phone.

He heard my footsteps and he turned around. I almost gasped as I saw how his nostrils flared as his expression harden. I took a step backwards as confusion clouded my features. Why was he mad?

He didn't look like Matteo.

He was another person.

A darker side I've never seen before.

"Why?," he said harshly taking a step closer to me.

"Why what?."

He turned my cellphone for me to look clearly the screen and fear crossed my face at the recognition. I sucked harsh breath as I saw the clear message.

'Don't forget to tell Matteo, its time for him to know. -Alessio'

What the hell?

I didn't have him in my contacts but he leaved his name on the message.

I couldn't move.

Matteo thought that I cheated on him with Alessio, his expression was clearly to read. He felt broken.