The night we met

Chapter 55

Fear is your worst enemy.

Is like something bother you head, body and soul. But the most powerful place where fear takes place is your mind.

The mind is the one that takes control of everything. Your body and emotions.
If you let it fear dominate your mind then it will eventually will dominate you body making it tremble and your emotions will just come out like a big firework that rises to the sky and Boom! It will eventually explote and its colorful pieces fall down.

Fear can change who we truly are, it just changes us as from the outside and inside. When fear is in front of us, we don't know what to do next. It makes a change in our mind, heart and soul. It changes our way of feeling and thinking towards things. We don't see things just the way the were at the beginning.

Its like a slap in your face that tell you to see what reality its like.

I'm still curled as push my legs in front of my chest. I can hear Alessio's and William's voice in the background but I don't pay attention in what they are saying. I'm lost where the only thing I know right now its that I'm alive and that I wasn't raped thanks to Alessio. After threatening me, he saved me and that's what am thankful of.

Why am I feeling lost?

I can still taste his blood in my mouth which makes me kind of dizzy right now. Am not a simple body where a man can take advantage of because he just wants to feel pleasure seeing me lose myself and burn the dignity I have, not caring of any damages he could have left behind.

Just as the song says 'This is a man's world'

I fight the feeling that is build inside of me, twisting and bothering me. I feel like someone has ripped a petal from me and there's something missing inside of me making me fear it mostly.

The petal has been ripped and torn apart and am watching the pieces in the floor as the wind carries them away in the sky.

I get back to reality as I hear Matteo's voice in the background but I don't lift my head up, fearing that I'm just imagining it. Maybe this is all a dream, but this time I want to wake up.

"Ava look at me."

I lifted it slowly as I cried harshly. My water eyes looked at those recognizable blue eyes in front of me. His eyes were wide as he saw his flower being torn apart. Like someone came and almost took all the petals away. I saw that he feared even touching me like I may fall apart any moment. But he didn't knew that his touch was magical and could even help the flower stand. I saw his soft expression towards me. He started to take another step towards me but I backed away a little bit.

Its just Matteo.

He won't hurt you.

I repeated those words as he took another step forward slowly but this time I welcomed him. I grabbed his hand slowly making my body relax under his touch. After some time only holding his hand were he waited patiently I hugged him crying heavily.

In matter of seconds he lifted me up slowly. I closed my eyes because I didn't want to see anyones face. I just wanted to disappear and go away.

Matteo didn't stop walking until we got into the backseat. I opened my eyes a little bit and saw William turning on the car.

I sat on Matteo's lap as he caressed my back slowly as my head laid on his shoulder near his neck breathing deeply.

William drove as Matteo whispered into my ear, "You're strong and beautiful. Don't let this get and domain you. I got you and I'm sorry I wasn't there protecting you. But am here now. You're stronger than you think you are."

I believed them truly to myself but when he said it, I even believed them even more. It was like he was affirming them to me.

I only hiccuped as he said those words making sleep take over me.

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I opened my eyes and I was laying in bed already with my pijamas on. When did he changed me?

"I'm scared of sleeping Matteo."

"Why?," he asked as he touched my lip softly making my eyes close. Every time I close my eyes I remembered him above me. My eyes water and tears fell down my cheeks heavily still with my eyes closed. Why did it hurt so much?

The memory of this.

This painful memory was now engraved in my mind and it was hunting me.

"I feel that he's above me....and that he will...."

"Am right here. I won't allow it, I promised you that. I know you still fear scare but I can't know how you exactly feel but if it helps you, you need to understand that you have all of my family, your friends at your side supporting you. I got you," he said pulling me towards him.

I continued crying but I couldn't forget.

I sat on his lap and he sat down quickly making me stop. But I felt how hard he was already.

"You don't need to do this."

"Please.....please..make forget. I need to forget everything and when I feel you inside of me I do. Please I beg you," I said between sobs.

I began kissing him as I pulled his pants downwards as I felt an arousal between my legs. He broke our kiss and whispered, "take the lead."

I nodded and I went downwards slowly making him groan deeply. My arms covered his shoulder as I pulled his head towards my chest. I moaned and I stopped crying as I felt pleasure all over my body making me feel flying in the sky were only the clouds greeted me.

I moved slowly taking my time as an orgasm was building inside of me. My orgasm came and I pressed my legs together and sat down deeper feeling him deeply inside of me.

I hugged him completely and moved my hair on one shoulder as he kissed my neck slowly as I began making circle moves.

I stayed still as he was still buried inside of me.

"Thank you," I said breathless.

Thank you.