I remember when we first met. I also remember what I first said to you. You change my life in many more ways than one. I remember the first night I ever saw you drunk. You were freaking out because your hair was soft. Like a kitten. Then Jaz took it a step further and said there was a bug on your shoulder. You told me you flipped out and threw your phone. I asked how many drinks you had had, you told me you lost count. Jaz and I laughed at your reactions to things. There were many ups and downs to knowing you. There was one night your "friend" jumped you. I cussed him out. Seeing as I could only do so much. He left the choices up to me. Wether you lived or died. Your heart stopped, or so I had been told. It was too late. The hardest part wasn't dealing with everything it was breaking it to Jaz. She was crushed until I got news your heart was beating again. We made many jokes together. Hell even had one with socks all because of my cat. You wanted to be free, Jaz wouldn't give you any socks, but I did and she told me I couldn't give you anymore. Tbh she won't give me a sock so after two years, I'm still not free .-. You told me once you loved the ocean. There was one day you were the only thing I was thinking of, and of course i happened to be by the ocean. So I bought a ring. It's a wave. Nothing too fancy, just simple, and you are the meaning behind it. I remember when we last talked... It felt like a punch in the gut.. I begged you to stay yet you said Jaz and I didn't need you, we just said we did... It was one of the worst nights of my life... I had been warned to put the tablet up but I didn't listen... I was too focused on you... On making sure you were safe... My mom took the tablet, I begged her not to. She didn't listen... I didn't only lose you that night, I lost Jaz and a part of myself... Since you've been gone, I've gotten a total of two messages from you... Only one of which I could respond to. You were one of my best friends and I hope that sometime in the future we can talk again. Catch up on everything that's happened since that day. A lot has changed about me. There is so much I wish I could tell you. I miss you, is the biggest one. But through everything, I'm glad I met you.
