Why is it when I don't hear something right, you'll snap at me? Or when i try to help, you get all defensive about it. What's so god damn wrong with what I'm doing? Why do you act like I'm the one who hurt you? Do you not remember what you did to me 2 years ago? Fuck even 7 months ago? What about the shit you pulled 3 months ago?
Why is it, that everything that goes wrong is somehow my fault? Why the fuck do you take every little fucking thing out on me?! What the hell did I do to deserve this?! All I'm doing is fucking trying! But that's not enough for you! It's not enough for anyone! You say you fucking care, but with how you treat me? It's nothing more than lies...
You know why i spend so much time in my room? It's so i don't have to deal with anything you, or anyone else does to me. I just wanna make everyone happy so i don't have to deal with not being good enough... Why can't I be good enough for you?... What am I doing wrong?...
It's always about how you feel... I do something to you to round back on you, yet I'm the one who gets the blame... No one believes me anyways... No one ever believed me.... I can't even tell the truth because it's not what anyone wants to hear!... And you all wonder why I lie... To fucking please you because I still can't do shit right!... I'm a failure, that's all there is to it...
I'm numb... I'm slipping... I don't want to be here anymore... Everyone would be better off without me anyways... I'd be less of a burden... For once... Can someone just see everything i do?... Can they notice that I'm not okay?... I'm tired of not being enough...
